So weak!

I feel like a little fawn who is just starting to learn to stand up.

My legs are so shaky.

I was in that hospital bed for like nine days and didn’t move for another two when I got home because I just slept.

I am trying to go downstairs to the kitchen more to get water and popsicles etc. but it’s difficult to get up and down the stairs.

I really need a shower, (I only took one early on when I was in the hospital because I was allergic to their soap), but I just don’t have the energy. I’m afraid I will collapse in the shower. Maybe first thing tomorrow I will try.

I ate a banana and some cereal today. That was pretty good considering how much I haven’t eaten.

I’ve lost like nine pounds since I went to the hospital. That’s pretty crazy.

I really just need to feel better. I am working hard at coming off the pain medication (give me two more days and I think I will be off of them), but the nausea meds are here to stay for a while I think.

I had such a sore throat from my half a day with that feeding tube. It lasted for four days. It was miserable.

I am finally healed up from that at least, even if my pancreas and liver aren’t sure what’s going on.

I am supposed to get my second hepatitis A vaccine tomorrow, but I don’t think my doctor will think it’s a great idea since my liver was acting up too and it’s not back to normal yet. So I have to put that off once again.

I am just flatly tired of being sick. I think I have a lot of trauma from this past hospital stay. More than usual. So I’m just kind of trying to process that and add it to the list for therapy.

Sigh.

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