Gotta be productive…

I have to do something useful with my day today or I’ll just melt into my bed and disappear. I don’t know what that is yet, but I’m working on it. I just need to do something. I am not good at stewing. My mom was horrifically ill last night so I need to check … Continue reading Gotta be productive…

Sleep is hard

It’s 4:30 a.m., and yet again, I’m still awake. I kind of give up on a regular sleep schedule. It’s just all kinds of messed up. I don’t really know how to fix it. I’m just irritated with myself. I took my meds at 10:30. They make me tired, but not sleepy enough. I am … Continue reading Sleep is hard

Big fail

Today was my oldest friend’s daughter’s graduation party. I should have been there. I was worried about the crowd, but I mean, I planned on being there. I wasn’t going to not go because of it. I would do almost anything for this friend. I am mortified that I couldn’t be there for this party. … Continue reading Big fail


I feel awful. I’m so dehydrated. I’m not positive what’s wrong, but I’ve been struggling with things running straight through me for a month really. I think it’s been ever since I started the new med. It actually had improved a little for about a week, but then we increased the dose. Literally, I was … Continue reading Here AGAIN

So sad today

I just want to stay in bed. I watched church online today because it’s hot outside, (church is outside right now), and because I couldn’t make myself get up and out of bed. I am dreading this graduation party I have to go to later today. I’m thrilled for my friend’s daughter who is very … Continue reading So sad today

More meds

I saw my psych prescriber this morning. We decided to increase the dose of the newer (to me) one. I really hope this helps knock me out at night. I’m over being awake for hours and staring at my phone. I’m over feeling restless and agitated. So… hopefully it helps. She’s worried about side effects, … Continue reading More meds

Waking up early

The early bird gets the worm? Not sure that applies here. I never need to set an alarm anymore because I’m always awake way before I need to get up. I guess in some ways, that’s a blessing because I have lots of time in the morning to mess around and do things before I … Continue reading Waking up early

Skin crawling

I am so restless. I have been for days really, but I haven’t had the energy to do anything about it really until today. So now, I’m feeling like my skin is crawling off and I can’t decide what to do. I should play with my art supplies and try to make something pretty, (or … Continue reading Skin crawling