I met with my therapist today and I talked to her about how I learned to regulate my emotions by shelving them. I tend to avoid intense emotions by packing them up and putting them on the shelf. I practiced experiencing emotion today in her office. I hated it. I am trying. It was just … Continue reading Bookshelves
There are just some people who come into my life and leave such a lasting and indelible mark that I will never forget them. Sometimes, even when things are going well, I really miss them. I miss the conversations and the camaraderie. I miss the way their light shines and the way I feel when … Continue reading Missing people
I am up early because I have a therapy appointment first thing this morning. I tried to get myself into the shower this morning, (I carried my clothes into the bathroom and everything), but I just couldn’t do it. I am so tired. I had plenty of caffeine this morning, but I couldn’t get myself … Continue reading Awake early!
I was going to get stuff done today, I swear. I planned on it, but the day just took a left turn. I know it’s because I was up too late last night. I slept until two in the afternoon today and then I didn’t feel like doing anything. Ugh. I tried to pump caffeine … Continue reading Unmotivated today
I managed to spend some time cleaning my closet. I guess that is part of my room so I can count it as cleaning that space. I also went grocery shopping with my stepdad and hauled everything into the house, so I did my good deeds for the day. It’s cloudy and gross today so … Continue reading I cleaned!
I’m going up to Mackinaw City, (so I won’t be necessarily crossing the bridge), but I am pretty excited about it. The straights of Mackinac is my favorite area hands down. I am more of a fan of the upper peninsula area than the lower, but my cousin’s grandma has generously invited me to come … Continue reading This girl is going up north!
I had a really good session with my therapist today. Maybe it was just that I hadn’t seen her in what felt like forever. I’m not sure. It just seemed like it was really productive. We talked about how I felt really invalidated by my medical teams and how much that sucked. We talked about … Continue reading Something good in therapy…
I finally crawled into the shower today. It took SO much effort. I did it so I could meet a friend today. And so I could go to my therapy appointment tomorrow. I took the shower and visited with my friend for an hour and a half and now I am literally toast. I am … Continue reading A shower!
I have been in the hospital since last Saturday night. I’m so over it. After talking with the doctor today, I finally see hope though. I mean, I think I will probably be going home tomorrow or Sunday. This makes me very happy. I suspect I won’t be doing much when I go home besides … Continue reading I finally see the light…
The mental health system is seriously messed up. I know this is not news to anyone anywhere, but I just have to rant for a second. First, let me be clear and say that I am incredibly blessed to have a great psych provider, a great therapist, and parents who help me access a wonderful … Continue reading Broken system