“Opposite Action”

There’s this thing in DBT called Opposite Action where you do the opposite of your emotion to try to change it. Today, I’m definitely trying to change the depression and anxiety that I was experiencing yesterday. I changed my sheets and I am washing (or rather drying now) my pillowcases. I made plans with a …

I got sunshine…

I painted my nails yellow tonight! I went to the beauty store today to buy more shampoo and I saw this sunshine yellow polish and couldn’t resist. I love it. It made me really happy. I had taken all of the polish off of my nails before I went to the hospital, so I needed …

I have the best providers…

…because they are so patient with me and don’t fire me even when I am a total idiot. I saw my dietican today and she is literally the nicest person. I really like her. My therapist is also a sweetheart. Even my psych is a nice person and genuinely cares about me, even when I …

Woke up laughing…

This morning was the direct opposite of yesterday morning. I woke up in a great mood. Not manic or hypo, just in a good mood. I rarely experience this. Not sure what to do with it if I am honest. I have a few things I can do this morning before my dietician appointment and …

Yay for self care!

I am sparkly clean! I managed a shower with only skipping one day! Yay me! I don’t know why it’s so hard for me to reintroduce this as a regular daily thing, but I’m getting closer. It used to be. I didn’t even question it. It was just how I started my day. And then… …

Waiting at the post office…

I forgot the post office closes for lunch until 1:30… I need to mail my stepmom’s Mother’s Day card. Hopefully she gets it in time. I went and got my mom’s gift today and cards for her and my stepmom. I also went shopping for me! I got a pair of jeans that are even …

New coloring book!!!

I went to the craft store before lunch and got this cool new coloring book. I told my therapist I would try coloring to help ease my intense emotions. I printed some coloring pages from the internet, but I didn’t find a bunch that I liked, so I decided to just look for a book. …

Med adjustment?

I already wrote about how freaked out I am about my med review tomorrow. I don’t know if I have the guts to ask for a med adjustment tomorrow on top of that. Honestly, I don’t know if I need one. I mean, so yeah, depression and anxiety have been kicking my rear end, but …

Errands!

I need to go to the store and pick up a few things. I am waiting for my clothes dryer to get done so that I have clothes to wear to the store. Then I need to take a shower. THEN I can go to the store. I need to grab some personal items, grab …

When the past won’t let go…

I was having a really fun night watching tv with my parents and celebrating when my ex called. Full stop. First, this person knows we are at a place of no contact. I have no idea why they called. Ostensibly it was to check on my health. That was thoughtful, but unnecessary and this person …