I’m unclear…

…as to what my purpose is. Not in an, “I don’t belong here anymore” kind of way, just in an “existential crisis” kind of way. I honestly have no idea what God or the universe has planned for me. It’s getting old. I’m getting old. For real. I have friends that have grandkids. I don’t …

Home now.

Mom is… okay. She is also home and sleeping now. I don’t know. I just feel fried. I was so worried. Her CT scan and labs came back normal and her blood pressure went down some so they let us go home. I was kind of super freaking out when she asked me where she …

At the doctor

I look awesome because I need a shower. I totally should have done that before I got here, but I couldn’t wake up in time and then I might have still been able to, but I just couldn’t make myself. Soooo…. Pony tail and new clothes and deodorant and a prayer that I don’t stink …

Headed back into the fray…

The nurse said I had to go back into the emergency room because I was throwing up too much. Color me thrilled. It’s Friday night. Do you know what the ER looks like on a Friday night?? I’ll be there just waiting for six plus hours. Sigh. I feel miserable. I guess it doesn’t matter …

Day 2986

I seriously cannot tell you how discouraging it is to still be throwing up after being out of the hospital for four days. I can’t even hold water down this morning. It’s really annoying. I don’t want to go back to the hospital, so I’m just staying put. I decided that I need to go …

This girl is tired…

…of being sick. No, I’m not back in the hospital. I feel like I could be though. I am so sick. I am so nauseous. I have taken all of the nausea meds that I can take. I still feel like I might lose the water that I just drank. It’s ridiculous. I don’t know …

Kitty went to the vet…

…finally. I rescheduled her appointment three times and had a breakdown before this appointment, but we got there. She had to have her three year rabies vaccine. She doesn’t really go outside, ever, except on to the deck, but she does occasionally catch mice in the house so it seemed prudent to get the vaccine. …

The struggle….

…just to keep water in my stomach. It’s completely real. I was an idiot and ate some pumpkin seeds when I got home this morning. Apparently they ticked off my stomach. I mean I guess because that is what I just threw up so… I thought the first time it might have been the ginger …

Home.

I’m out of the hospital, finally. I still feel kind of terrible if I’m honest. I am so thirsty and I can’t seem to make the pain in my side calm down. I was on iv fluids until this morning, so now that I’m responsible for hydrating myself, I’m not doing quite as good of …

It’s official…

…I hate everything. I am sick. I’m tired of being in the hospital. I keep throwing up and being in pain. I am uncomfortable and angry and lonely. I am sad. I am tired. I just ate too much food trying to get the doctor off my back so he wouldn’t order a feeding tube. …