So weak!

I feel like a little fawn who is just starting to learn to stand up. My legs are so shaky. I was in that hospital bed for like nine days and didn’t move for another two when I got home because I just slept. I am trying to go downstairs to the kitchen more to … Continue reading So weak!

I look crazy…

My ct scan came back normal. I am apparently not sick. Or I am, but my body doesn’t want to cooperate right now. I don’t know. Either way, I look crazy. I hate that word but I’m sure someone is applying it to me right now. I hate this. I was convinced they would find … Continue reading I look crazy…

Virtual reality

I really hate doing mental health appointments of any kind virtually. It’s harder to gauge body language and just what’s going on with the other person during conversations. I know I shouldn’t be worried about that, but my brain subconsciously picks up on all of those things and I adjust my mouth accordingly. Anyway, I … Continue reading Virtual reality

The 30th…

An experience from this year: I had some really profound moments in therapy this year. I figured out some things about myself that led to new directions and new goals. I am pretty grateful for the opportunity to go to therapy and for my therapist, who has helped me sort out a lot of difficult … Continue reading The 30th…