Really??

I had a “video visit” with one of the doctors in the practice that I go to. It wasn’t with my doctor or this idiocy would not have happened, (at least I don’t think it would have happened). I told him how I had been feeling super fatigued and how it had come on rather …

Pancake.

I’m so tired. Just exhausted. I got my covid results back today and it was negative, but something is wrong. I feel like I’ve been run over flat by a big truck. I have no energy. Maybe it’s “just” a virus, but it’s taking me out. I mean, I’d rather it be that than my …

Lost.

I had crazy dreams last night about the apocalypse. I also had dreams that I can’t quite remember... I have memories like that too and I suspect they are from when I was really quite small. I remember specific things from when I was 2 and 3 fairly vividly, but I’m sure I don’t remember …

Insomniac.

I am so tired of not being able to fall asleep. Like over it. I take my meds and lay in bed for over an hour every night trying to fall asleep. My body is exhausted, but my brain is still wired. I hate it. On top of that, I wake up in the middle …

Weekend

I am spending my weekend on schoolwork. Should I have gotten this done sooner? Yup! I feel like crap. I have a paper due at the end of this month and I feel like it’s not going to get done on time. I’m so worried about it now that I don’t feel well. I’m dizzy …

Unmotivated

I slept until noon today because I was exhausted. I don’t know what’s wrong. I feel like I’ve been hit by a truck. I have homework and a quiz this weekend to finish and I’ve read a chapter. Yay me. I have two more chapters and things online to read plus a bunch of videos …

Planning.

I met with one of the social workers at the place where I’m going to do DBT today to do my treatment plan. Fun stuff. I don’t really enjoy that process, and I suspect the social workers don’t really love it either. I mean, it’s helpful and useful and good, but it’s not especially entertaining. …

Buried.

School has me feeling like I’m being buried alive. I lost Thursday night because I had to go to the emergency room for that stupid allergy/asthma attack and I’m paying the price today. There’s only so much school I can do in one day. I am fully burnt out. I just need to take a …

Inhaler.

I started having an asthma attack literally out of nowhere yesterday. It was not okay. I think I got triggered by the mop chemicals that my parents have that are super flowery/powdery smelling. I’ve had problems with them triggering my allergies before, but nothing like yesterday. I just kept coughing and gagging and couldn’t get …

Illuminated.

The sky is this glowing sort of pink that is absolutely amazing. I know you can’t see it in the picture, but the sunrise is illuminating the tops of the trees that are changing colors and it is breathtaking. I am so happy this morning! I slept kind of not very well, and I have …