Gotta be productive…

I have to do something useful with my day today or I’ll just melt into my bed and disappear. I don’t know what that is yet, but I’m working on it. I just need to do something. I am not good at stewing. My mom was horrifically ill last night so I need to check … Continue reading Gotta be productive…

Sleep is hard

It’s 4:30 a.m., and yet again, I’m still awake. I kind of give up on a regular sleep schedule. It’s just all kinds of messed up. I don’t really know how to fix it. I’m just irritated with myself. I took my meds at 10:30. They make me tired, but not sleepy enough. I am … Continue reading Sleep is hard

Big fail

Today was my oldest friend’s daughter’s graduation party. I should have been there. I was worried about the crowd, but I mean, I planned on being there. I wasn’t going to not go because of it. I would do almost anything for this friend. I am mortified that I couldn’t be there for this party. … Continue reading Big fail

Here AGAIN

I feel awful. I’m so dehydrated. I’m not positive what’s wrong, but I’ve been struggling with things running straight through me for a month really. I think it’s been ever since I started the new med. It actually had improved a little for about a week, but then we increased the dose. Literally, I was … Continue reading Here AGAIN

So sad today

I just want to stay in bed. I watched church online today because it’s hot outside, (church is outside right now), and because I couldn’t make myself get up and out of bed. I am dreading this graduation party I have to go to later today. I’m thrilled for my friend’s daughter who is very … Continue reading So sad today