Glow up!

I thought, instead of putting up some picture of me in a hospital or me with a feeding tube (!!), I’d put up a pic of me today with actual makeup on. As much as I’m still trying to process my hospital experience and living with this chronic pancreatitis thing, I’m also not going to …

Kinda traumatized…

I know this seems like maybe a small thing, but really. I have just spent basically three weeks in the hospital. Some of it I thankfully do not remember with amazing clarity thanks to the pain meds, but other parts I do. I distinctly remember the feeding tube and having to have it places twice …

I pray it’s today!!

I miss being home. I miss my family and friends. I miss my cat. I miss my car. Seriously. I have spent most of this past month in this hospital. It’s kind of annoying. I have conquered the nausea and abdominal pain and am ready to go home, but now they have me on a …

Stupid stupid stupid head….

…that’s me. I’ve been so sick for three weeks. I totally lost my cool today on the hospital staff because they have this unit attached to the er that has rooms with no windows and suite-style shared bathrooms. I hate this. It sounded like they were talking about me during their shift in the hallway. …

So weak!

I feel like a little fawn who is just starting to learn to stand up. My legs are so shaky. I was in that hospital bed for like nine days and didn’t move for another two when I got home because I just slept. I am trying to go downstairs to the kitchen more to …

I look crazy…

My ct scan came back normal. I am apparently not sick. Or I am, but my body doesn’t want to cooperate right now. I don’t know. Either way, I look crazy. I hate that word but I’m sure someone is applying it to me right now. I hate this. I was convinced they would find …

Not much sleep…

I think I got like four hours of sleep in total last night. I slept for a couple hours around nine and then for a couple more this morning before the lab came in to draw blood. I am now fully awake and ready for my day to day to start! I do feel slightly …

Still here…

It’s Saturday and I’m still in the hospital. I am still on a clear liquid diet as well. Haven’t really progressed very far. I did get into the shower today though because it had been a week, so yay for that. My hospital room has two windows so it’s very nice and I am blessed …

So I’m not crazy! (This time)…

My pancreatic enzymes are over three times the highest range of “normal,” meaning I have pancreatitis again. I knew I was in pain. I knew I wasn’t making it up in my head! I don’t know why I let these doctors in my head. Apparently the machine in the lab was broken for checking lipase …

It gets worse…

Got most of my labs back. As far as I can tell there is nothing wrong with me. I mean, I’m in pain and I don’t know why, but my blood work definitely doesn’t explain it so for all intents and purposes I must not be sick. It must be in my head. I mean, …