To sleep or not to sleep?

It’s almost five in the morning. Yes, I’m still awake. I can’t fall asleep. I’m anxious and mildly upset and I just can’t relax. I probably could lay here and eventually fall asleep in an hour or so, but I have to get up and go to my cousin’s and go to therapy by eleven …

Dancing Queen

When you were five, what did you want to be when you grew up? It was a total toss up between being a ballerina and an astronaut if I’m honest. I never took any dance classes as a child, although I was in a lot of musicals so I did dance and sing on stage …

No warning

I’m aware that this post is going to make me sound like an entitled brat. However, I usually get a heads up before the cleaning people come. That’s so I can straighten up my bathroom and make it “decent” for the cleaning people and so it doesn’t embarrass my parents. I wouldn’t care if they …

Happy and Sad: Bipolar Disorder

What’s something most people don’t understand? It seems like a lot of people think that Bipolar Disorder, (otherwise known as Manic Depression), is a constant state of ups and downs. Swinging from “happy” to “sad” at the flip of a switch. I see a lot of people compare it to the weather, for example. “The …

Virtual doctors…

Okay. So. I don’t mind virtual appointments in general, especially when they are follow up appointments or when I need to see my specialist who is more than two hours away. In those cases, virtual doctor visits are helpful. I don’t have to burn gas and I can get medical care I need. I do …

Still feeling blue

I don’t know exactly what’s up with my mood. I just still feel like crap. I haven’t really been out of my bedroom for several days. I did pick up the pile of garbage next to my bed, (mostly paper plates and empty applesauce cups). I was pretty proud of myself for doing that. I …

Not having it.

I’ve been sleeping all weekend and most of today. I just can’t seem to get it together. I feel crappy. Physically and emotionally… I just feel gross. It would probably help if I got in the shower and did something, but I don’t want to. I canceled my dentist appointment this morning because I couldn’t. …

Care coordinators…

Okay, so I got this call from a “care coordinator” for my health plan. I knew it was bound to happen eventually. I have to use the emergency room/hospital way too much for them not to try to contain their coats and “manage” me. The thing is, I try to contain their costs too because …

Guess where I was?

That’s right! This girl was back at the emergency room! Yay me! My side is hurting and I am so nauseated. I have other symptoms as well, but they are not suitable for company. So, yeah The doctor gave me a bunch of different anti-nausea meds and some pain meds so I’m officially loopy. I’m …

Montessori

Who was your most influential teacher? Why? The Montessori method is a fairly complicated one, but one of the major tenets of it is that kids learn through play. Another is that kids will learn when they are ready to learn that subject. I went to a Montessori school from preschool through second grade and …