Pancreatitis… again…

I have pancreatitis again. Color me thrilled. They are still deciding if they are going to admit me or not. One part of me wants nothing to do with being admitted and the other part knows I cannot take care of myself with this at home. So… I don’t know. I just feel wretched. Oh, …

My attention span is crap.

I’m trying to do this training thing with the National Weather Service online (on a break), and seriously I cannot focus for the life of me. It’s like, “look at all the pretty colors!” “Oh hey, I haven’t thought about that since high school, let’s think about that!” I’m struggling. I have a hard time …

I don’t feel great

I was in the emergency room last week for side pain and nausea etc. The pain is thankfully mostly gone, but I’m still having wicked gastrointestinal symptoms that won’t go away. Literally every time I eat I’m miserable. As you can imagine, this is leading to me eating very little. While the eating disordered part …

It’s not okay to hit people, Will…

So Chris Rock made a tacky joke at the Academy Awards. Apparently Will Smith thought the cool thing to do would be to bum rush the stage and slap Chris. Sorry. I get that Will is defending his wife. Somehow I don’t care. She wasn’t under physical threat and it was a freaking joke, albeit …

Got sleep…

…but I woke up at 6:30 p.m. so I’m just a little bit concerned that I won’t sleep tonight. I tried to get up this morning because I was supposed to go to breakfast with a friend, but I couldn’t deal with being awake. I was seeing spots because I was so tired. Now I’m …

Awake for two days…

Except for a couple of naps, I’ve been awake for two days. I don’t really know what has brought this change. I’m not sure if it’s the change in weather or a delayed reaction to daylight saving time… I just know it’s miserable. I don’t feel particularly manic, but I mean, I can see some …

All-nighter

I can’t find the “off” switch. I’ve been awake since 10:30 a.m. yesterday and it’s nearly 1:00 p.m. now. I am tired, but not sleepy. I think I can count the number of times I have been able to stay up all night long, (even when manic), on less than one hand. I am kind …

Ouch!

I feel terrible. My side hurts so much. I don’t know why and it’s starting to really tick me off. It’s like when you run or swim and get those cramps in your side… like it’s just miserable. It’s mostly constant and won’t stop. It’s starting to impact my sanity which, if I’m honest wasn’t …

Appointment and errands today

I have an appointment with my dietican today. I’m hoping that’s a good thing and that maybe she can help me figure out what’s triggering this pain in my side thing. I really am starting to think it’s related to what I eat. I don’t know what she’ll say, but I guess it’s worth finding …

Okay, so I caved

I was so nauseated and my side hurt so much that I caved and called the nurse line. Of course they sent me to the emergency room because they always send me there. I don’t know why I bother to call. Honestly. Anyway, again they find nothing in my bloodwork and again they give me …