Lunchtime

I went to the dentist this morning and it wasn’t bad. I actually love my dentist, I’m just afraid of going. I am struggling with serious nausea today and I feel pretty wretched. I am, (ironically), out to lunch with my friend who took me to the dentist. I ordered a side salad and a …

So weak!

I feel like a little fawn who is just starting to learn to stand up. My legs are so shaky. I was in that hospital bed for like nine days and didn’t move for another two when I got home because I just slept. I am trying to go downstairs to the kitchen more to …

Finally home!

I finally made it home yesterday. I am still in a little pain and I don’t feel the best in general, but I think I can manage the symptoms at home. The doctor gave me the option of staying one more day or going home and I jumped at the chance to go home. I …

Not quite what I had imagined for myself…

Here’s me with my feeding tube. How fun is that?! Spoiler alert: it’s not. It is feeding me without me getting terribly sick though and so for that I don’t mind. I really don’t care. It’s fine. I can’t stay like this forever I guess, but I mean, if it keeps the pain away… I’m …

Feeding tube?

Okay. So, every little thing that hits my stomach puts me in extreme pain. Like I want to scream and cry. I tried to eat cream of wheat today and I just about doubled over. I worked really hard at not throwing it up. I am beyond frustrated. Then the doctor comes in today and …

I look crazy…

My ct scan came back normal. I am apparently not sick. Or I am, but my body doesn’t want to cooperate right now. I don’t know. Either way, I look crazy. I hate that word but I’m sure someone is applying it to me right now. I hate this. I was convinced they would find …

I am not really feeling better…

I am still in the hospital and I am not really improving from what I can tell. Yeah, my labs are better in some ways. That’s good. In others they are still hung up. I’m don’t know. Today I get to have a ct scan. We, (my medical team and I), avoid them generally because …

Visitor today!

I don’t know why my eyes look weird. I’m gonna have a visitor today!!!! I’m so excited! It’s been two days since anyone came up and saw me and I’ve been really lonely and bored. My friend is coming up to see me. I’m so grateful. I know it’s hard for people to take time …

Not much sleep…

I think I got like four hours of sleep in total last night. I slept for a couple hours around nine and then for a couple more this morning before the lab came in to draw blood. I am now fully awake and ready for my day to day to start! I do feel slightly …

Itching to death…

I took a shower this morning and ever since then I’ve been itching like mad! I can’t explain it. I’m about over it though. I am allergic to just about everything so it’s not a shocker if I am scratching. I’m pretty sure it’s the hospital soap. It’s pretty harsh and not really very skin-sensitive. …