Two days….

I have two days until I see my psych. I have no idea what she will want to do, if anything, to my meds. Last time was a total and complete disaster. Maybe I should ask her to leave them alone, and just work on my issues in therapy, but I’m not sure if it’s … Continue reading Two days….

And… apparently not??

I ended up back in the emergency room last night because I followed the doctor’s directions and went back. I was also afraid to go to sleep with my heart rate that low after everything the first doctor had said. So…I went back in and dealt with the circus AGAIN for almost four hours waiting … Continue reading And… apparently not??

This soon???

Trigger warning ⚠️ for discussion of eating disorder ⚠️ So I ended up in the emergency room again because my pulse was under fifty. I told the doctor this time that I had an eating disorder and that changed the whole game. He ran a bunch of labs (all normal), to check my electrolytes and … Continue reading This soon???

Self preservation

I think it’s better if I sleep. I have an appointment with my dietican later that I have to be awake for, (obviously), but otherwise, I just think it’s better if I’m not awake. Anxiety and depression are ridiculous and my tools for dealing with those don’t seem to be working very well. I drank … Continue reading Self preservation

I needed that

I finally fell asleep yesterday at around six in the evening and woke up take my meds at some point before midnight and promptly fell back asleep. It’s 8:30 in the morning here and I’m just getting moving. I really needed to just rest. I would do more of that today but it’s housekeeping day, … Continue reading I needed that