Storms

We were supposed to get a bunch of nasty weather today.  It never really came.  The air is thick and heavy and there is something electric about the atmosphere, but the storms have missed my area. At least so far. There was some anticipation leading up to this, as I am somewhat afraid of storms … Continue reading Storms

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Badpolar

I wrote in Switches about how I was suddenly having mini depressive episodes inside of this mixed thing. Guess what? This morning I got to have a manic episode. So awesome.  So much more destructive.  I started just wanting to get my cousin a simple little cake for her birthday.  When I couldn't get what I wanted, … Continue reading Badpolar

Switches 

I honestly don't exactly understand what is happening with my mood situation at the moment. I am having odd mini-episodes within the current one that I can't explain. Maybe they are just part of it? Maybe they are just my brain trying to calibrate? I'm not sure. I've had depression set in overnight, where I … Continue reading Switches 

Trust

In my post, Confrontation, I described an interaction with a social worker and how it failed partly because of my trust issues. That social worker really did have the best of intentions and she did actually help me figure some things out, just not the things she was focused on. I realized how profoundly global my … Continue reading Trust

Confrontation

This morning was an interesting one. The same social worker that inspired my Systems post on Friday, came again this morning. We did not have a better interaction today. It's somewhat baffling to me because over the weekend I had great interactions with the staff that came out. I suspect they had significantly more experience than the … Continue reading Confrontation

Adulting

I thought "adulting" meant that I was not allowed to acknowledge that things from my childhood have dramatically affected me. I think that is actually what being a full adult is: understanding all of the parts of yourself that you can and why they are there and attempting to change the ones that hurt you … Continue reading Adulting

Tylenol

I have a nasty headache today. This is not especially abnormal for me given that I get fairly frequent migraines (although they have been less bad lately), and I even have my very own headache specialist neurologist that I have to travel an hour to go see every few months. The bad part is that … Continue reading Tylenol