Glow up!

I thought, instead of putting up some picture of me in a hospital or me with a feeding tube (!!), I’d put up a pic of me today with actual makeup on. As much as I’m still trying to process my hospital experience and living with this chronic pancreatitis thing, I’m also not going to …

Kinda traumatized…

I know this seems like maybe a small thing, but really. I have just spent basically three weeks in the hospital. Some of it I thankfully do not remember with amazing clarity thanks to the pain meds, but other parts I do. I distinctly remember the feeding tube and having to have it places twice …

Yaaaaaaayyyyy!

I’m getting out of the hospital very soon! Within just a couple of hours! I’m so happy! I can’t wait! I feel like a new person. I have been feeling terrible for so long, and I finally feel better! Even one of the nurses who took care of me on this floor on an earlier …

I pray it’s today!!

I miss being home. I miss my family and friends. I miss my cat. I miss my car. Seriously. I have spent most of this past month in this hospital. It’s kind of annoying. I have conquered the nausea and abdominal pain and am ready to go home, but now they have me on a …

IVs and CTs, and Labs, Oh My!

I had to get another ct scan this morning. I am exhausted and tired of being in the hospital. I really just want the pain and nausea to stop. My ct scan shows gastritis. Woo hoo. That is not really a problem worthy of a hospital stay, or worthy of my symptoms I don’t think, …

Stupid stupid stupid head….

…that’s me. I’ve been so sick for three weeks. I totally lost my cool today on the hospital staff because they have this unit attached to the er that has rooms with no windows and suite-style shared bathrooms. I hate this. It sounded like they were talking about me during their shift in the hallway. …

Lunchtime

I went to the dentist this morning and it wasn’t bad. I actually love my dentist, I’m just afraid of going. I am struggling with serious nausea today and I feel pretty wretched. I am, (ironically), out to lunch with my friend who took me to the dentist. I ordered a side salad and a …

So weak!

I feel like a little fawn who is just starting to learn to stand up. My legs are so shaky. I was in that hospital bed for like nine days and didn’t move for another two when I got home because I just slept. I am trying to go downstairs to the kitchen more to …

Not quite what I had imagined for myself…

Here’s me with my feeding tube. How fun is that?! Spoiler alert: it’s not. It is feeding me without me getting terribly sick though and so for that I don’t mind. I really don’t care. It’s fine. I can’t stay like this forever I guess, but I mean, if it keeps the pain away… I’m …

I look crazy…

My ct scan came back normal. I am apparently not sick. Or I am, but my body doesn’t want to cooperate right now. I don’t know. Either way, I look crazy. I hate that word but I’m sure someone is applying it to me right now. I hate this. I was convinced they would find …