This requires a TW: SUICIDE This is also LONG. I realized I have yet to tell my "diagnosis story" with any kind of detail. Here goes. I think I really started showing symptoms by age 11 or 12. I can remember crying at night with my Mom for no reason. I blamed family members, I … Continue reading Beginning


My heart is heavy And so is my mind My limbs won’t move And I find I can’t stop thinking Of you my dear And how you slipped Into your deepest fear Old original art by me.

my heart hurts

⚠️ ⚠️ ⚠️ ⚠️ ⚠️ ⚠️ My friend from high school completed suicide and I am heartbroken. I feel like I should have been able to do something to stop it. I knew she was in trouble. I knew it was bad. Since I didn’t know her baseline of bad, but kind of assumed it, … Continue reading my heart hurts


⚠️ ⚠️ ⚠️ ⚠️ ⚠️ ⚠️ I found out, literally five minutes before therapy this morning, that my friend from high school that I was trying to help out completed suicide sometime in the last 48 hours. I am numb. I am completely disassociated from it. I tried to help her. I don’t feel like … Continue reading Suicide


They have this thing here at your annual review with the community mental health agency called “LOCUS.” It’s the worst thing in the world. Stupid people who have no familiarity with your case get on a call with you and your therapist or case manager or whomever and ask you questions about how you’re doing. … Continue reading LOCUS