Beginning

This requires a TW: SUICIDE This is also LONG. I realized I have yet to tell my "diagnosis story" with any kind of detail. Here goes. I think I really started showing symptoms by age 11 or 12. I can remember crying at night with my Mom for no reason. I blamed family members, I …

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Childhood Favorites

I went to go see The House With A Clock In Its Walls this afternoon because it's based on one of my favorite children's books by John Bellairs. His books are hard to find now, but I'm hoping that this movie makes the publisher re-release many of them. They were really good. The movie took …

Ding!

I'm so done for the day. I'm exhausted. I volunteered to talk to people at the "recovery and wellness" fair in town for one of the groups I'm a part of, and I walked two miles this morning. I also went to the grocery store. I'm so over today. I still have to meet with …

Balancing

I'm trying to find balance in all of the areas of my life. Food, sleep, activity, relationships... I'm just sucking no matter what I do. I need this balance in order to be emotionally healthy, but I don't know how to achieve it. I don't know how to eat "just enough" to be healthy, without …

Care

It's that old mental health metaphor about the airplane safety lecture and applying your oxygen mask first before you assist others. It doesn't mean you don't love or care about the people around you, it just means that you are no good to anyone if you are passed out in your own seat. I am …

Black

Black nails to match my mood. Sorry I've been so silent. I've been overwhelmed. Photo by me.

Weekend

https://youtu.be/5Vl7VIs9LF8 Just a beginning of the weekend update...

Labels

Labeling has become part of the dialogue around me lately, particularly mental health ones. I think it's a question of how much stock a person puts into them and how much that person thinks other people will react to that label that makes them so detrimental. I know that for me, when I was first …

Bingo

I saw this on fb and I had to share it on my blog because it was so funny. I apologize for the foul language. It seemed appropriate though since my mouth goes completely out of control when I am manic/hypomanic. I just thought maybe some of you who read my blog who live with …

Storm ⛈

I made this art this afternoon. The brain is sharpie on purple paper and the rest is oil pastel on black paper. I am feeling a little "in between" today. I guess this represents that somehow. Original art by me.

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I walked for just over two miles this morning. I haven't been really walking for a couple of months, so I was very pleased that my first mile was about 18:30 and my second was a minute faster than that. When I was walking regularly, my miles were always in the 17's. I am hoping …