Beginning

This requires a TW: SUICIDE This is also LONG. I realized I have yet to tell my "diagnosis story" with any kind of detail. Here goes. I think I really started showing symptoms by age 11 or 12. I can remember crying at night with my Mom for no reason. I blamed family members, I … Continue reading Beginning

Way too early

I woke all happy and awake at 5:30 am, and this is me totally regretting it. My alarm is set for two hours from now. I could be sleeping. I mean, I could if my brain would let me. I’m sure it’s because I took a long nap yesterday. Watch me do that again this … Continue reading Way too early

Doctor tomorrow…

…and technically this is a follow up to being in the hospital with pancreatitis. Like seriously I have seen doctors since then so I’m not sure what the point is, but I have yet to see my actual PCP, so it’s probably good. I need to talk to him anyway because I am probably leaving … Continue reading Doctor tomorrow…

I feel…

Kind of numb. I don’t know. I don’t think tonight is a great night. I forced dinner down my throat when I wasn’t even hungry because I don’t want my dietican to send me to the hospital. That was super hard. I feel sick. I took my meds early hoping I would go back to … Continue reading I feel…