This requires a TW: SUICIDE This is also LONG. I realized I have yet to tell my "diagnosis story" with any kind of detail. Here goes. I think I really started showing symptoms by age 11 or 12. I can remember crying at night with my Mom for no reason. I blamed family members, I … Continue reading Beginning


Goals: 11/16/17

I'm going to talk to the peer support at my case management office today. I'm hoping that she can help me to process some of the things that are going on. Really, I just need someone to listen, and she is well equipped to do that. I might be taking a friend to run an … Continue reading Goals: 11/16/17


I did it!!!! I took a shower! This seems dumb, I know. Whatever. I'm happy. Fall/winter is hard for me. I did something for self care. Yay me! Do something nice for yourself today too! 😊 Image from Pexels.


Cancer stole one of my best friends almost exactly four years ago, (yesterday would have been his birthday), and now my closest friend has non-hodgkins lymphoma. When Dave got sick, it was like a living nightmare. He first identified a spot on his leg. We didn't think it was going to be that big of … Continue reading Cancer

Goals: 11/9/18

I have let the dishes get out of hand. Clearly that is a major goal today. I have a primary care appointment this morning. I think that will probably eat through most of my day to be honest. I'm pretty much toast. Someone close to me received a cancer diagnosis and I'm kind of numb. … Continue reading Goals: 11/9/18

Goals: 11/8/18

Today I see my therapist and there are definitely things I need to process with her. My mood is okay, but circumstantial life events have overwhelmed me. It's largely why I have been absent from my blog lately. Life is complicated and I've also been pretty sick. I'm starting to feel a little better, so … Continue reading Goals: 11/8/18


Had to go to the doctor this morning to get checked out since I've been really sick. She gave me a pain shot and ordered some immediate labs that I am sitting waiting for. She thinks that there is more going on with me than just the singular issue, and I am in no position … Continue reading Labs