Beginning

This requires a TW: SUICIDE This is also LONG. I realized I have yet to tell my "diagnosis story" with any kind of detail. Here goes. I think I really started showing symptoms by age 11 or 12. I can remember crying at night with my Mom for no reason. I blamed family members, I …

Tomorrow is a blank day…

I don’t have anything scheduled for tomorrow… I really don’t know what to do with myself. I mean, there are plenty of projects that need my attention so I don’t really have the luxury of doing nothing, but I am kind of overwhelmed by the mess of my bedroom and don’t know where to start. …

Trying to be okay

I am on the struggle bus today. My hair is terrible because our hot water heater has been down for a couple of days, (the guys are here now replacing it). I have been trying to keep it together for my mom and my stepdad because they are stressed out and it’s hard on them …

When I don’t wanna stress…

…but I clearly am anyway, My stepdad is buzzing around the house because we don’t have hot water. I think I solved that with him this morning and freed him from the box that he was thinking in. Allegedly, the different plumbing company is coming tomorrow afternoon with a new hot water heater of the …

I’m unclear…

…as to what my purpose is. Not in an, “I don’t belong here anymore” kind of way, just in an “existential crisis” kind of way. I honestly have no idea what God or the universe has planned for me. It’s getting old. I’m getting old. For real. I have friends that have grandkids. I don’t …

When water heaters explode!

I’ve been telling my stepdad that the hot water in the shower has not been consistent for a few months. I mean, duh. Something was wrong with the water heater. It is eight years old so it was on its last legs, right? Right. You’d think he would know that. Nope. So this morning I …

Me and my Dad…

You’re going on a cross-country trip. Airplane, train, bus, car, or bike? I am a huge fan of the Great American Road Trip. This might be a two hour adventure to grandma’s house or across the country, but I’m here for it either way. When I was twelve, my Dad moved to California while I …

I seriously can’t…

My stepdad just came running up the stairs and pounded on my door because my mom was crumpled on the floor next to her bed. Now, she was just exhausted and couldn’t get from the living room to the bedroom without falling down from exhaustion, but I still don’t know what my stepdad expected me …

Ready to get my green on!

I’m ready to go! My university’s, (or my alma mater I guess), basketball team won their first March Madness game today. Go Green!!!!! (The colors of the school are green and white). I am very happy about that. I’m only a basketball fan during March Madness, but Michigan State always makes it to March so …

Saint Patrick’s Day

I’m aware that Americans make a ridiculous deal about this holiday. I used to go to a university where the school colors were green and white and where it was a tradition to kill your liver on this day. People would line up for the pubs and bars as early as 3-4 am the night …

Migraine day

Because there hasn’t been enough fun lately, let’s add a migraine!!! Yay! The best thing I can say about it is that I don’t have anything really to do today outside of the house. I wanted to get some laundry done, but I can work on that tomorrow if I have to. I am just …