Beginning

This requires a TW: SUICIDE This is also LONG. I realized I have yet to tell my "diagnosis story" with any kind of detail. Here goes. I think I really started showing symptoms by age 11 or 12. I can remember crying at night with my Mom for no reason. I blamed family members, I …

Finally home

I am finally home from the hospital. After all of that, they still don’t know what happened or why I got so sick. They kind of chalk it up to pancreatitis, but they don’t really know. It’s super annoying. Regardless, I still feel like crap, but I’m home feeling that way instead of laying in …

I finally see the light…

I have been in the hospital since last Saturday night. I’m so over it. After talking with the doctor today, I finally see hope though. I mean, I think I will probably be going home tomorrow or Sunday. This makes me very happy. I suspect I won’t be doing much when I go home besides …

Big storms!

We had some nasty storms last night I guess. I didn’t notice them because I was in the hospital and my window looks out onto a courtyard thing, instead of fully outside. Thank goodness. I’m pretty scared of storms so I am not a fan. Anyway, a bunch of people I know lost power last …

Yeah… still here…

I’m still in the hospital. It’s awesome. Actually, I mean I don’t wish this pain on anyone or myself, but the staff has been amazing and my doctor has been really good as well. I feel like they are really trying to figure it out this time and not just send me to the curb. …

Seriously though???!!!!

Yeah that is an IV in my arm. I have pancreatitis again. I am so mad. I am in the hospital again, and so frustrated. I don’t know what is kicking this off. Avoid stuff kids. Photo by me.

So overwhelmed

I have so many things to do and so many directions to go in, I am just simply overwhelmed. I don’t know if I am coming or going. I need to clean my room. I am trying to help my friend who is being evicted. I’m trying to stay social. I am trying to be …

Stability is fragile

I realized that part of the reason I’m so upset about my friend getting evicted, besides the obvious, is that I’m not in the most stable of situations myself. I mean, so if something happens to my parents, I am essentially homeless. Not a good feeling. So yeah. I think I might start putting my …

Messed up

My friend is getting evicted from her apartment. Let me tell you why this is crap. Did she technically violate the terms of her lease? Absolutely. The thing is, she doesn’t always understand things and she doesn’t always know what’s going on with people. So, did she knowingly violate her lease? I mean, probably not. …

Meltdown on isle 6

I am working on a total emotional meltdown tonight. Not sure exactly why. I mean, I had a really nice time with my cousin and her girls this weekend. It was fun and I feel like I got quality time with all three of them. My cousin’s grandma was also lovely and very kind. I …

I once was a Girl Scout…

I didn’t really learn much in the Girl Scouts besides how to sell cookies, but I was one. My Dad however, was a Boy Scout for a very long portion of his life and I’ve watched him build fires a number of times. That came in handy last night when my cousin and I got …