Accomplishing things slowly

It sort of feels like there are million things in my way right now, but I’m slowly getting across them. I helped my mom pay for my school today. That was a huge deal. I was worried that I wasn’t going to be able to go. I mean, she paid, but I helped her navigate …

Stupid emergency room

I sort of “casually” went to the emergency room today. Before you judge me, hear me out. I couldn’t get an appointment with my doctor for a solid week and I went to the immediate care place associated with my health system and they would not help with my issue. So… the only way to …

Goals for tomorrow…

I mostly didn’t do anything today. Actually, I really didn’t do anything today. So… I have to make a list of things to do tomorrow so that I actually accomplish something. I need to shower. I need to get my ear checked out if it still hurts tomorrow. I need to do at least two …

Wild week

I’ve been spending most of my time in bed since I got out of the hospital a month ago. I talked to my therapist and she and I agreed that it was mostly due to depression even through it’s not the way depression usually presents in me. This week, things spun out though because I …

My mood is trash

I am grouchy and tired and restless and depressed. I chalk it up to being on painkillers for a week while I was in the hospital and the few days before. I feel miserable. They totally mess up my mood. I need to do some basic things, and some not so basic things, to take …

Not ready for this week

I have so many things I need to do this week. Tomorrow I need to try to schedule a dentist appointment again. It’s so hard to get into my dentist. It’s stupid. I just have to keep trying though. I have to schedule a medical test. I have to schedule an oil change for my …

Saturday Movies…

I’ve been pretty lazy today. I went to breakfast with a friend I haven’t seen in a long time. I watched the 1982 version of Annie, (which is pretty much my favorite movie to this day). I visited my cousin and her girls. I watched a Clint Eastwood flick. Now I’m watching Mean Girls. It …

New meds and trying

My psych added a new antidepressant to my cocktail of meds yesterday. I am hopeful that the med will help lift me up out of the constant state of low level depression I seem to be in. It’s kind of like I’m under water but I can see the surface and just can’t break through. …

I like sleep.

I am tired and worn out again and I am so grateful to be back in my bed. Seriously. I love sleep. It’s funny because at different times in my life, I’ve hated sleep, or rather, the necessity of it. Now I am so happy to get rest, and enough of it, it’s almost silly. …

Welp, two loads done…

I got two loads of laundry done. They don’t look like the above picture, however. At least I have some clean clothes for the next two days. I can get the rest of it done sometime this weekend I guess. Along with the trash and organizing things… I have so much to do. I just …