I’m here. Awake. At almost one o’clock in the morning. Yay. I am not excited about it. I’m really anxious about my appointment with my gastroenterologist in the morning. It’s a virtual appointment, but it’s still an appointment and I don’t know what he’s going to say about me having been in the hospital so … Continue reading Elusive
It’s a good day!
I am feeling pretty awesome today! Not manic, just finally not sick and not really in a funk. I showered, shaved my legs, put on a dress, and even blow dried my hair! I am meeting a good friend for lunch and I’ve been looking forward to this lunch for a while. I also have … Continue reading It’s a good day!
What fears have you overcome and how? This is a picture I posted on my blog back in 2017. It shows where someone dig into the window casement and pried the window open. I was sooo freaked out (they ran away when I came back into the room). Anyway, I had been afraid of people … Continue reading Boogeymen
Need to find my motivation…
My motivation seems to be about as lacking as the rain has been over the past couple weeks. I guess part of it is that I don’t feel 100% and also that it is, as I’ve said, so darn hot. Just sizzling out there. It just sucks my energy dry as soon as I step … Continue reading Need to find my motivation…
I essentially missed therapy last week since I was in the hospital. I mean, I made contact with her, but I was on meds and just trying to negotiate with doctors and things, (and was pretty angry with everything going on), so I didn’t really talk to her long. I really need therapy today. I’m … Continue reading Therapy today!
All of them…
What jobs have you had? Honestly, I have had so many different occupations in my lifetime. Bartender was my favorite, not so much for the serving of alcohol, but for the community and meeting people of all walks of life. I’ve worked customer service in a zillion different kinds of ways from a literal sense … Continue reading All of them…
Giving up fear…
Choosing to clean may look like an weird way to express giving up fear, but hear me out. My bedroom has been a disaster area for a year. At least. For that year, I have been in and out of the hospital more times than I can count with pancreatitis. It’s gotten so bad that … Continue reading Giving up fear…
Don’t get me wrong, my hospital room has this gorgeous view, but I’m done being here. I’m pretty sure I’m being discharged today, which is fine by me, I just want to go already. I do not know why I am still sitting here. The doctor I’ve had for the last two days was a … Continue reading Over this
Sending up a prayer
It might seem like a silly thing to pray for, but I’m sending a prayer that I get out of this “purgatory” area of the hospital and get a “real” room. The room I have now is very small and so it is impossible for me to keep the door closed. Unfortunately, that means I … Continue reading Sending up a prayer
I absolutely do not want to sound ungrateful, because I am just grateful to not have to be taking care of these symptoms by myself anymore, but this unit that they have me in is like packing people in sardine cans. My room is maybe 8x8, has no windows, and a shared bathroom with the … Continue reading Sardines