Ugh to side effects!

Okay. So the side effects of this new antidepressant are not so much fun. I feel like I’m starving all of the time. Like literally all I want to do is eat. I am not a fan. Hopefully, that goes away soon, otherwise I’m going to have to stock my fridge with celery sticks. Seriously …

New meds and trying

My psych added a new antidepressant to my cocktail of meds yesterday. I am hopeful that the med will help lift me up out of the constant state of low level depression I seem to be in. It’s kind of like I’m under water but I can see the surface and just can’t break through. …

Mental health appointments!

I see both my psych and my therapist today. I am kind of in an in-between place. I think my meds are more or less okay. I mean, could they be better? Maybe. I don’t really know. I am always just kind of depressed. I wish I could just not be there. I wish I …

My week is full!

I have so many things to do this week! I am volunteering again today. I am not thrilled about it, but I keep saying I’ll be there. I am trying to make myself stay motivated. It’s okay. It’s good for me. I need to be responsible. I am running a couple of errands today. It’s …

I should art

I really should draw or paint or something today. I don’t know what that would be, I just think I should. Maybe I should write a poem. I don’t know. I’m feeling the need to create. At the same time, I’m feeling dull and sad. I had therapy today, which I mean, was helpful in …

Busy day of fun

Sarcasm. I have to go to the podiatrist today… again. I see my dietician today… again. I like her though. She’s super nice. I feel like I should see her every week, but my insurance doesn’t cover her and I can’t afford to, so I kind of can’t. I have to do it biweekly. I …

Can we talk about Britney?

Okay. I’m not a celebrity gossip blogger. I usually blog about my mental health. Except today, I am reading snippets of what Ms. Spears said to a California judge regarding her conservancy, and frankly, it’s kind of horrifying. Apparently she has been forced to have an IUD to keep her from getting pregnant. I’m sorry. …

I survived volunteering

It was okay. I still feel like I’m in a fog. I put a call into my psych, but I don’t know if the nurses will get it to her today. I feel awful still. I don’t know what to do besides just sleep. I need to clean and do other things, but my body …

I am depressed

This is what it looks like. I’m literally too embarrassed to show pictures of my floor. I am feeling defeated and like this depression is endless. It’s been going on for so long. It’s the middle of summer and I don’t feel better. I don’t know why. We had to discontinue the newer med that …

Survived the monsoon

I made it to my destination- early- but I’m glad I gave myself the time because it rained so hard. Like so hard. I was legitimately white knuckling it through most of my drive. It completely sucked. I found a diner to stop and have breakfast at. I’m pretty happy about that. I needed coffee. …