This day matters to me. I am an attempt survivor from shortly after my 16th birthday. I have lived 21 years and 8 months since then. I have had all kinds of amazing experiences since then. I have met some of the most beautiful people you could ever imagine since then. Bipolar Disorder can be … Continue reading World Suicide Prevention Day
I made this last night. There is iridescent glitter on the letters but it doesn't show up on the picture. I made it because I've been struggling with the word "recovery" and what that means for me. I think that I've put a lot of focus on the meaning and not realized that it sort … Continue reading Words
You guys, I finally have a therapist. No joke. So happy. I've been without one since May. This one is tough, but direct and honest and seems like she genuinely cares. I'm a fan. I am starting CBT next week to work on anxiety issues. Yay!
In ten minutes I meet with a person who is hopefully going to be my therapist, at least in the short term. The goal is to work on anxiety. Goodness knows I need that. So wish me luck because I've been without a therapist since May. I definitely need one and I grow weary of … Continue reading Hopefully
Just so everyone is crystal clear. I AM THE ONE IN FOUR. I don't plan on sitting back and being silenced either. If you believe in anti-psychiatry hoodoo, of any flavor, it's not welcome here. Psychiatry has saved my life. Two women have spent countless hours with me listening to me, consoling me, and yes, … Continue reading Anti-Psychiatry
I've been skating across the surface a little here, so let me talk about something actually real. I had an appointment with my psychiatrist yesterday. Although I was lucky enough to have an emergency appointment a few weeks ago with her, usually my appointments are far more rare. Like diamond rare. My next appointment for … Continue reading Authenticity
The only way I know to prevent suicide is to erase the stigma surrounding it and mental health as a whole. I have tried to share my experiences here as a way to bust stigma about what people living with bipolar disorder are like. I've also hoped to provide a platform of shared experience for … Continue reading Prevention
About three years ago, I was in a psychiatric unit (nothing new for me) except this time the psychiatric PA determined that she needed to start with a clean slate. She discontinued all of my psychiatric medication and started me on just one. Sadly, within 3 days of discharge I had serious reactions to that … Continue reading Frozen
My case manager asked me today if I was doing better purely because I was, if I was hiding things from myself at all, or if I was maybe hiding things from both her and I because I don't want to scare her. That was a really good question. I have given that some thought … Continue reading Counterfeit
Honesty was definitely the best way to go I think. I have NO idea how this will pan out for me in the end, but I said what was true. We'll see what happens... I will find out the biggest part on Wednesday I think. After that it's just a bunch of details. Hard ones … Continue reading Anticipation
