Crash and burn

What goes up, must come down. My fun hypomanic episode has come to an end. It had to of course, but I’m seriously bummed. I hate depression. The hopelessness and the feeling that it’s never going to end, even though I know realistically that it will. I’m just tired of the ride. People say that … Continue reading Crash and burn

What a goat rodeo…

Okay, some of you may have noticed my blog went dark on Friday. I went inpatient for my eating disorder. Ostensibly. Unfortunately, because of the way the system works, (or doesn’t), I got placed on a psych ward and didn’t see a dietician until today. I also didn’t see a case manager until today. I … Continue reading What a goat rodeo…

Five years!!!!!

I can’t believe I have had this blog for five years!!!! Five years of rambling and wandering. Thanks for joining me on the ride whether you are new here or old. I love you all!!!

I ate breakfast…

Trigger warning ⚠️ for eating disorder ⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️ I had oatmeal at the restaurant for breakfast. It was the only heathy(ish) thing on the menu. I put like a tiny splash of milk and probably a teaspoon of brown sugar in it to make it edible, but I didn’t get all of that because I didn’t … Continue reading I ate breakfast…

Two days….

I have two days until I see my psych. I have no idea what she will want to do, if anything, to my meds. Last time was a total and complete disaster. Maybe I should ask her to leave them alone, and just work on my issues in therapy, but I’m not sure if it’s … Continue reading Two days….

This soon???

Trigger warning ⚠️ for discussion of eating disorder ⚠️ So I ended up in the emergency room again because my pulse was under fifty. I told the doctor this time that I had an eating disorder and that changed the whole game. He ran a bunch of labs (all normal), to check my electrolytes and … Continue reading This soon???