This depression is horrific. They all are. It feels as if I'm like Peter Pan except I'm trying to find my missing soul instead of my shadow. My body feels like someone is slowly bending and breaking my bones from the inside. The pain that wells up in waves ts is unimaginable. The only thing … Continue reading Tidal
There once was a girl who could think, But all that's gone in a Blink. Her meds got changed, And now she feels strange, Like her brain is swirling down the sink. Image from Pixabay
Good morning! It's Friday! I won't be doing Friday Quotes again today probably (sad faces I know). It takes time to research those and I don't have the focus right now. I have a couple of goals for today: The very last of the Christmas ornaments need to be wrapped and put away. These are … Continue reading Goals: 1/19
Sometimes I just lose my s@#t. It's not pretty. I don't mean in anger, although that's happened. Occasionally though what happened earlier today happens, and I let my emotions take over the driver's seat. I'm not talking about not going to the art class. That was still the right thing. I am talking about how … Continue reading Rationality
I was worried about disappointing people or letting myself down about not going to this art class, but I have to be honest that my main feeling about it is relief. I was so freaking stressed out about it that it was ridiculous. Should I have pushed myself anyway? Maybe. I don't know. I do … Continue reading Peace
I decided I can't go to the art class. It's just not happening. It's not going to be a big Shock to people that know me. I am not the best with follow through. Whatever. It wasn't fun and I am in a terrible headspace to attempt that right now. I don't know if the … Continue reading Decisions
I don't know if I can do this art class today. I have so much anxiety built up, I'm exhausted, and my mood is crap. It wasn't fun last week. I tried to put a positive spin on it, but I did not have fun. I was stressed out the entire time. I don't know … Continue reading Class?
I'm already in tears this morning and therapy hasn't even started yet. I had to sit in the parking lot for a few minutes to get myself together before I could even come into the lobby. Thankfully I am my usual ten minutes early. I am not feeling myself today. I just wish things could … Continue reading Already?
Goals today are going to be hard. I have therapy this morning. That is fine. I can go to that. Then there is the art class. I really don't want to go. At all. I'm going to have to spend some quality therapy time talking about that. It's already making me hate art. I don't … Continue reading Goals: 1/18
I've had better days. I've also had worse ones. This one kind of falls nearer to the crap ones than I would like, but it will get better I guess. I'm just struggling. Depression has been kicking my butt lately and I didn't need to have weird a$$ side effects from another damn medication. It … Continue reading Had