This is not the best pic of me. I'm clearly still struggling. However, I made an effort today to put on some makeup and throw some earrings on. I took a shower last night so my hair is clean, and I took that nasty nail polish off of my nails. I'm trying. What can I … Continue reading Effort



Anyone who has been following me for a while knows that I usually keep my nails done. So much for that. I painted these something like December 19th and they look like absolute crap right now. I have been struggling to just get in the shower on a socially acceptable schedule, (I.e., more often than … Continue reading Care?


I've been a lazy bum today. I haven't quite slept most of the day like I did yesterday, (in fairness to me yesterday, I had a wicked headache), but I have done mostly nothing. I guess I did manage to journal a lot and that is something. That took a lot out of me and … Continue reading Bum


I have been journaling about traumas I've experienced in my life. It's more of a list right now. I have eight pages so far in my journal. Things aren't really even detailed. I probably could fill things in, but it just feels too hard to do that right now. Just getting it out on paper … Continue reading Trauma


I got a new journal today!!! Also some fun pens. I know I use my blog for most of my "journaling," but this is kind of for listing and straight up rambling. I think it will help with the slump I'm in and maybe help with some of the anxiety. I had forgotten how I … Continue reading Journal


I slept pretty much all afternoon and now my internal clock is messed up. I thought I was going to be able to sleep tonight because I had a stressful day and I was feeling freaked out, but I guess it doesn't work that way. I think I'm full of adrenaline and still kind of … Continue reading Nocturnal