Home and hiding

I’m in my room hiding in my bed. It’s safe and cozy and I have pretzels. I am going to have to seek out some water eventually, but for now I’m fine. I love my parents so much, but I just don’t feel up to “people-ing” right now. I am overwhelmed. I burnt myself out …

Trying to keep a smile on my face…

…but I’m not having it today. I have been super high energy, trying to keep things afloat for my friend and trying to maintain a façade of “happy” so they would feel “okay.” I do that. I hate that I do that, but I do. I am ready to be in bed all day. I …

Silly undergrad

Describe the most ambitious DIY project you've ever taken on. When I was an undergraduate student at Michigan State University, I had my very first apartment. My mom had gotten me some new furniture and I thought I was all set. It was a loft-style apartment and I loved it. I made myself dinner every …

Well…MRI results are in…

…and they are incredibly frustrating. I mean, I am glad they don’t show evidence of chronic pancreatitis, but I don’t know what the heck is wrong with me so that is super annoying. I’m not sure what to think at this point. I know my pancreatic and liver enzymes spike and I get in a …

Going to bed early today

I’m at a hotel with my friend. We got here late last night and the place was booked! Thankfully, I had made my reservations before the ice storm so I didn’t have to worry about all the people lining up for hotels because they didn’t have power. I have an MRCRP, which is just a …

Giddy

I’m in such a good mood this morning! I got plenty of sleep and I have lots to do today. I’m with my friend and I have to get them motivated to get their stuff done so we can get out of town today. We are going to a concert that should be pretty fun, …

Stressed

I’m trying to pack for the weekend this morning and I should have done it last night. I’m trying to get it done before I go to therapy so I can keep driving to my friend’s house from there. My friend is going with me to a concert out of town this weekend and then …

Masking

I am so very talented at masking my emotions, even from myself. What I mean by that is, I tend to not even notice that I’m not feeling anything, at least not anything deeply, unless it’s really profound or I’m very vulnerable to emotion for some reason. It’s especially true if I’m with someone who …

Do I dare venture out today?

Everything is coated in ice. It’s actually really beautiful. The scary thing is that there are many many power lines and trees down all over and I’m not sure if my road to the main road is clear. I want to go help out a friend, and I am pretty sure that if I can …

Attack of the Migraine

I have had a wicked headache all day. I can’t seem to get rid of it. It feels like a migraine, but nothing is taking it out. I am absolutely miserable. My stomach is involved as well and I ate dinner like a moron so I’m feeling awesome. I’m thinking it’s this terrible weather we …