I have done exactly nothing today. I haven't talked to anyone voluntarily. I haven't gotten out of bed even except to snag lunch. I'm not entirely sure what's going on. I needed to rest my knees because I kind of over did it somehow during the week so that's been my excuse, but I also … Continue reading Lay-Z
Month: September 2017
Moribund The spark of my soul is restless. Relentlessly running from the riotous ruins of the summer. Perilously pursued by morose monstrous thoughts bought mercilessly by the morass of my moribund mind. Fall flickers ahead, destination detoured by potential devastation and the demon designated, identified, named: Depression.
I couldn't think of a better image than a roller coaster. Trite for those of us with Bipolar Disorder, but disturbingly accurate. I'm concerned that my inner feelings of restlessness and desire to find anything with a tangible outcome as opposed to all of the figurative ones I have achieved is all due to me … Continue reading Sliding
It's funny that when I first saw the daily prompt today, the old folk hymn, Will the Circle be unbroken started immediately playing in my head. I didn't write about it then because it weirdly makes me think of my grandmother, and I miss her dearly. The church I went to for the longest period as a … Continue reading Folk
You ever have that feeling when you wake up that a day is going to be a total write-off? That's me today. Both of my knees are pissed off now. The original one from injuring it and the other now from over-compensating. Walking sucks. I woke up with what may or may not turn into … Continue reading Helpless
My cousin is like a sister to me and she has the two most amazing little girls you could imagine. Of course I'm not biased AT ALL, but they are pretty awesome. The oldest is 2 and 10 months and the youngest is 9 months. They are a hoot. The oldest is at a place … Continue reading Littles
Check this out! I am starting to have nails again!!!! This is a huge deal. I started biting my nails (gross I know) when I was 12 years old. I stopped for a few years until this past January maybe when things started going to hell. Then I had them torn WAY down. They were … Continue reading Nails
My therapist set me a goal of finding three places I could potentially volunteer at that might be more project based rather than sort of repetitive task based. I guess I should have made it clear with her if I was supposed to call on those places and get information and apply, or just have … Continue reading Challenge
I got into a discussion with my Mom today (she's 70ish for reference) about smart kids becoming socially isolated at school because of their intelligence. I know that it happened to me. I was bullied by kids who were perpetually angry that I scored higher than them on tests or was 1st chair in band … Continue reading Weight?
I am a child of the 80's. I'm pretty sure I still have my Rainbow Brite doll somewhere... Anyway, it's come to my attention that my love for rainbows may be giving people the wrong idea. I am 100% heterosexual. I like boys. That said, I consider myself an ally of the LGTBQ community. I … Continue reading Brite