Really??

I had a “video visit” with one of the doctors in the practice that I go to. It wasn’t with my doctor or this idiocy would not have happened, (at least I don’t think it would have happened). I told him how I had been feeling super fatigued and how it had come on rather … Continue reading Really??

Pancake.

I’m so tired. Just exhausted. I got my covid results back today and it was negative, but something is wrong. I feel like I’ve been run over flat by a big truck. I have no energy. Maybe it’s “just” a virus, but it’s taking me out. I mean, I’d rather it be that than my … Continue reading Pancake.

Insomniac.

I am so tired of not being able to fall asleep. Like over it. I take my meds and lay in bed for over an hour every night trying to fall asleep. My body is exhausted, but my brain is still wired. I hate it. On top of that, I wake up in the middle … Continue reading Insomniac.

Weekend

I am spending my weekend on schoolwork. Should I have gotten this done sooner? Yup! I feel like crap. I have a paper due at the end of this month and I feel like it’s not going to get done on time. I’m so worried about it now that I don’t feel well. I’m dizzy … Continue reading Weekend

Planning.

I met with one of the social workers at the place where I’m going to do DBT today to do my treatment plan. Fun stuff. I don’t really enjoy that process, and I suspect the social workers don’t really love it either. I mean, it’s helpful and useful and good, but it’s not especially entertaining. … Continue reading Planning.

Buried.

School has me feeling like I’m being buried alive. I lost Thursday night because I had to go to the emergency room for that stupid allergy/asthma attack and I’m paying the price today. There’s only so much school I can do in one day. I am fully burnt out. I just need to take a … Continue reading Buried.

Illuminated.

The sky is this glowing sort of pink that is absolutely amazing. I know you can’t see it in the picture, but the sunrise is illuminating the tops of the trees that are changing colors and it is breathtaking. I am so happy this morning! I slept kind of not very well, and I have … Continue reading Illuminated.

Fall.

It not only looks like fall here, but it’s starting to feel that way too. I usually experience some kind of mood shift this time of year. I know a lot of people start struggling with the tendency towards less light in the day and start feeling more depressed. I have been, weirdly, more “up” … Continue reading Fall.

Irritated.

I’m super grouchy. My cousin is leaving tonight for Florida. I saw her for twenty minutes today. She had me meet her at grandpa’s. My grandpa is 96 years old. He kept saying how this was probably the last time he would see her and her girls. It was awful. Meanwhile, a friend of mine … Continue reading Irritated.

Miss.

My cousin, who may as well be my sister since we are that close, told me Friday she is moving to Florida tomorrow. I am heartbroken. She has two little girls, (3 and 5), who are the sun in my world and while I haven’t seen them as often as I should, I love them … Continue reading Miss.