Bad med review…

I had my med review this morning with my psych. I walked in and kind of accosted her about how much it sucked to have weekly pickups of one of my meds. I ineffectively tried to explain how this makes me feel. It’s stigmatizing and inconvenient and not helpful. I was angry and it came …

Struggling to relax in the face of so much uncertainty…

I find myself glued to the television watching the chilling events occurring in Europe. I am horrified. I wish I could say that I was shocked. I’m not really. I know I don’t talk about politics here. I’m not going to get into my countries’ response or what I think NATO or whoever should do …

Sorry

I suppose my last post makes me look callous and uncaring. There’s so much history and backstory missing from that post. Stuff I can’t really divulge on this blog because it’s not entirely anonymous and because I am not out to harm anyone. I’m just feeling all the feels today. Bear with me. Image from …

This whole post requires a trigger warning ⚠️

So here’s the thing. I have this friend. We’ve been friends now for a few years. I don’t write about my friends here because I usually choose to protect their anonymity and this blog is about my journey, not theirs. However, this friend has caused me some serious harm over the years; harm I’ve overlooked …

It bears repeating

https://youtu.be/kiiYS2vLD5Y I don't want to be the filler if the void is solely yoursI don't want to be your glass of single malt whiskeyHidden in the bottom drawerI don't want to be a bandage if the wound is not mineLend me some fresh airI don't want to be adored for what I merely represent to …

Food logging disaster

I tried to log my food intake. I did. I managed to do it for a few days and then I just kind of…. gave up. Really what happened is that I got really stressed out and I was eating too much and I was embarrassed and I didn’t want to log it. Whatever. I …

Binging Netflix lately…

I’ve watched a lot of things on Netflix as of late. My most recent obsession was Inventing Anna I had read about her before, but I didn’t really know all of the particulars of her story. What a brat! I read an interview today of Rachel in Vanity Fair and she said: “Having been betrayed …

I’m pretty sure I should just be sleeping

I am really tired. I took my meds already. Why am I still awake? It’s a great question. I’m pretty sure the answer is that I just have too much on my mind. I’m really happy my Dad is out of the hospital, but I know he has a long recovery road ahead of him. …

Feeling a little “blah.”

I mean, I am not really depressed per se, I’m just a little blue. Things just feel overwhelming. My doctor referred me to physical therapy for the tired legs thing. He doesn’t really believe me that something super weird is going on. I guess he could be right, but it seems like it’s getting worse …

A prayer answered amongst other things…

My Dad is out of the hospital! This is an old pic of us, (and a not great pic of me), but I don’t have a recent one. That’s on me. I hope to go visit very soon. It’s definitely an answer to prayer. I am feeling so relieved about this. I can’t tell you. …