I am drowning in my own emotions. I can't seem to find the "rational" no matter how hard I try. I even went to the ER on Friday night because I didn't think I was safe or that I could handle how I felt anymore. I probably should have pushed for an admission to somewhere, … Continue reading Drowning
Month: March 2019
I am so anxious this morning I feel like I am floating. I left my purse and my therapy binder at the house because I am so spacey. My chest won't stop hurting and I feel like I can't breathe. My legs are jello and I kind of feel like passing out. I keep shaking. … Continue reading Floating ⛅️
Have you ever been triggered by something and not realized that it was going to be a trigger until it happened? Yeah, that was me this morning. It was not good timing. I have my suspicions as to why it is such a big deal, but I don't know why for sure. Sometimes, (a lot … Continue reading Triggers
Kindergarten style self-portrait. I just said I would post ALL of my art. I never promised it would be good art. I don't really feel like explaining this. It doesn't come from a great place. Clearly. Original art by me.
Making art today. The first one is a quote I saw in a local business and really liked. The second is part of my obsession with Alice in Wonderland and just kind of how I'm feeling. Enjoying my artsy day. Original artwork by me!
Man, I suck at asking for help. I think it's mostly because I don't want to inconvenience anyone else. I feel like a burden as it is and I hate bothering other people with what I feel like is my responsibility. It's mostly that. If I had to admit the really gross part though, I'm … Continue reading Asking
Feeling so overwhelmed today by all of the things that need to be done. It's like the house exploded. Things are a mess. Literally. I've been falling behind on chores and it shows. Now I don't even know where to start. I just kind of want to sleep or go do something else. Neither one … Continue reading Boom! 💥
I made this today. It's a little dark, but it has happy colors! I am on this, "let's discover all of Kim's flaws!" journey for the past few days. Today I realized that I don't know how to shut up when it's important. I ask people to talk to me and then, when I feel … Continue reading Shut!
I've been spinning in circles for a while now. Anxiety, depression, freak out, repeat. I need to find a way to get out of the loop. It was suggested to me today, after I said I felt like everything was out of control, that I need to find at least one thing that I could … Continue reading Circles
https://youtu.be/db_y1fRHdPA Feeling a little crazy today. I went to therapy yesterday laughing while feeling desperately depressed. Last night I had the, "someone is going to break in!" paranoia and was hysterical about it- and laughing. I got crappy or very little sleep for three nights, (I finally got a solid six hours last night), and … Continue reading Blender