Buried.

School has me feeling like I’m being buried alive.

I lost Thursday night because I had to go to the emergency room for that stupid allergy/asthma attack and I’m paying the price today.

There’s only so much school I can do in one day. I am fully burnt out. I just need to take a little bit of time and recoup.

I have a major paper due that is a quarter of my grade and I don’t have it done. The last third of it is hard and I can’t seem to get it started.

Granted, I thought that about the last part of the homework for today and I finished it after stopping it last night.

I’m hoping that if I just take a break tonight and look at it with fresh eyes tomorrow it will make more sense.

I don’t need to 4.0 this class. I really don’t. I want to, but I don’t need to. I can be a 3.0 student and still graduate with my degree.

Sigh.

It’s hard to do all the things and try to get good grades and keep up. I don’t know.

I just want to have a decent paper.

Clearly, anxiety is kicking my butt. I’ve been drinking more, which isn’t really like me, but it is like student me.

I’m not drinking to “old me” levels- I don’t even know how I managed that- but I mean a few times a week now. I guess that’s probably normal adult drinking. I don’t really know since I went from 500mph to stop.

Something to keep an eye on I guess.

I think it’s also mood related. I drink when I’m “up” or “mixed.” I’m pretty sure I’m kind of “mixed” at the moment.

I like school, don’t get me wrong. It’s good for my brain. I just don’t know how to balance anything else into it just yet.

Ugh.

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