Nightmares

Trigger warning ⚠️ discussion of eating disorder stuff ⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️ I am not really okay. There’s a lot of things going on with my friends and I’m trying to help, but I think I’m sinking. Last night I had a really strange nightmare. I dreamed I was at my psych’s office and the scale was off …

I am scared

I may have been exposed to Covid and I feel a little funky. I’m scared that I might be coming down with it. I scheduled a test for five days from exposure, but I am worried. I don’t want to get anyone in my house sick, and I’m scared to tell them I might have …

My closet is a mess!

After I replaced the lightbulbs, I decided to start tackling the shelves in my closet. I literally organized one and half shelf and got overwhelmed. I mean, it’s a start, and I’m not sad about it, but it’s ridiculous. I threw out half a bag of trash just from those two shelves. I even found …

Anxiety is a…

I’m anxious. I don’t know why. I kind of still, or again, have a headache and maybe that’s not helping. I am just kind of struggling tonight. My friends are struggling too so it’s not really fair to vent to them. I just kind of want to calm my brain down enough to sleep. I …

Finally see dietican today…

I haven’t seen her for a week and a half and I’ve only seen her once since getting out of the hospital due to scheduling conflicts. It’s been kind of a rough period for me and I didn’t see my therapist last week either which was kind of a problem in retrospect. So… I am …

Improved my day.

I did end up going to see Top Gun tonight. No spoilers, but it was fun and silly and I’m glad I went. I went to the cheap theatre, which is probably not really the cheapest since it’s like a half hour away, but their popcorn is $2 and their water bottles are a $1 …

Overwhelmed by myself…

I need heavy machinery to dig out the mess I’ve made in my room. For real. Every time I get it a little cleaner, it is a mess again. I don’t even know where to start. I’m so overwhelmed. I don’t really feel well today. I’m totally exhausted for some reason, but I feel so …

What to do today?

I had a wicked migraine last night and I woke up today feeling a little iffy. I thought about going to the beach with a friend, but it’s super hot today and I think it would just destroy my stomach. Sooo… not sure what to do with myself today. I kind of want to see …

Unscheduled Father’s Day stop…

I had to take my stepdad to urgent care for a bit earlier. He was washing dishes and sliced his finger on a knife that he forgot he put in the sink. It was kind of bleeding everywhere, as fingers do, and it was a nasty little cut that mom and I weren’t sure didn’t …

Blue!

I painted my nails and toes blue today! The yellow I had on them was chipping and I kind of wanted blue. I wanted a more sky blue color, but I didn’t have it, so this was as close as I could get. It’s an old OPI color. I made a total mess of my …