Still here…

It’s Saturday and I’m still in the hospital. I am still on a clear liquid diet as well. Haven’t really progressed very far. I did get into the shower today though because it had been a week, so yay for that. My hospital room has two windows so it’s very nice and I am blessed …

Kinda feeling nervous

I met with my therapist today and I am not sure how it went. I talked to her about how things were better since the last med adjustment and how I was able to set a boundary with my friend. We both agreed that those were positives. We also talked about the holidays and how …

The 26th…

A moment from today: I watched “the big game” today with my parents. That was fun. It was between two schools that I would rather BOTH lose, but someone had to win so I’m glad it was the school from my state. I guess. Haha they are the rival university to the one I went …

13th and 14th…

13th- something I use daily: Umm….I guess I’m grateful for my pillows. Sounds kind of dumb, but hear me out. Sleep is really important to maintaining my stability and overall wellness, so it’s crucial for me to get at least five to six on a busy night, and seven to nine on a normal night. …

The 10th…

A favorite memory? I think, while again it is incredibly difficult to choose, I’ll try to pick just the one… I pick birthdays with my mom as a kid for my favorite “together time.” She made yummy snacks that most moms didn’t the patience for, and was into making everything a teachable moment. Really though, …

Anxious about tomorrow

I am part of a medical study at my old university and I think I might have to sit in an MRI tomorrow. I generally hate them on a regular basis because I am so claustrophobic, but I I’m pretty sure I will really hate it with my eyes open doing tasks. I don’t know …

Trying to calm down

Everything is bugging me. I want to do a thousand things right up until I go to them and then I don’t really have the gumption. I am irritated and sad and miserable. I need a shower. I can’t relax. I HATE having to be on steroids. I seriously think I’m only taking a half …

I’m really going to fail this class…

I’m throwing in the towel. I honestly can’t. It’s like there is a giant wall between me and the requirements left for this class. I can’t even begin to fathom how I am going to get started. I can’t focus. On top of that, every day someone needs me for something that I don’t feel …

I pretty sure I’m going to fail

I took an incomplete for my class that I was in because of mental health issues. I thought at the time that I would be able to complete the required assignments in the time allotted. That was until my friend did what she did and totally upended my world. Now, I’m anxious about everything and …

Watching my Sparties now…

I know I couldn’t really watch yesterday because I was so anxious, but now that I know they won, I can watch it and enjoy it. How silly is that? It’s kind of dumb. I’m pretty happy about this game though. It was a good game. Both teams played really hard. I like to give …