Trying to calm down

Everything is bugging me. I want to do a thousand things right up until I go to them and then I don’t really have the gumption. I am irritated and sad and miserable. I need a shower. I can’t relax. I HATE having to be on steroids. I seriously think I’m only taking a half … Continue reading Trying to calm down

I’m really going to fail this class…

I’m throwing in the towel. I honestly can’t. It’s like there is a giant wall between me and the requirements left for this class. I can’t even begin to fathom how I am going to get started. I can’t focus. On top of that, every day someone needs me for something that I don’t feel … Continue reading I’m really going to fail this class…

So much school!

I was inspired by the Ragtag daily post word “procrastinate” this morning. I took an incomplete for the class I was in, but that means I still have basically half of the class to complete this month. I have been totally putting it off because everything has been happening and I have not been in … Continue reading So much school!

Rivalry Day!

It’s the Michigan State vs. University of Michigan football game day! I have a hard time watching this game because I tend to freak out. I want Michigan State to win so badly. Both teams are ranked in the top ten and so it’s a really big game. We’ll see how I do. I have … Continue reading Rivalry Day!

Silver lining…

Every cloud has a silver lining, right? A couple of things: First, I had to meet with my professor today about the incomplete. It was this morning before I had found the steroids to take and I looked very rough. He didn’t ask any questions about what health condition(s) had led to me asking for … Continue reading Silver lining…

Not only…

…do I have to take this furball to her well check vet visit in five hours, I have to meet with my professor later this afternoon on zoom to discuss my incomplete. I have zero clues how I am going to appear sane doing that. He will know something is wrong. I am not prepared … Continue reading Not only…

Self sabotage…

…is kind of what I’ve been engaged in. I have this fear of success. I mean don’t get me wrong, I also have an absolutely terrible fear of failure, but I’ve been there before. It’s “comfy.” I haven’t had a ton of success as of late. I am afraid of what happens when/if things work … Continue reading Self sabotage…