Trying to calm down

Everything is bugging me. I want to do a thousand things right up until I go to them and then I don’t really have the gumption. I am irritated and sad and miserable. I need a shower. I can’t relax. I HATE having to be on steroids. I seriously think I’m only taking a half …

I’m really going to fail this class…

I’m throwing in the towel. I honestly can’t. It’s like there is a giant wall between me and the requirements left for this class. I can’t even begin to fathom how I am going to get started. I can’t focus. On top of that, every day someone needs me for something that I don’t feel …

I pretty sure I’m going to fail

I took an incomplete for my class that I was in because of mental health issues. I thought at the time that I would be able to complete the required assignments in the time allotted. That was until my friend did what she did and totally upended my world. Now, I’m anxious about everything and …

Watching my Sparties now…

I know I couldn’t really watch yesterday because I was so anxious, but now that I know they won, I can watch it and enjoy it. How silly is that? It’s kind of dumb. I’m pretty happy about this game though. It was a good game. Both teams played really hard. I like to give …

So much school!

I was inspired by the Ragtag daily post word “procrastinate” this morning. I took an incomplete for the class I was in, but that means I still have basically half of the class to complete this month. I have been totally putting it off because everything has been happening and I have not been in …

Okay, so I didn’t really watch, but…

Sparty won! Barely! The University of Michigan played a good game though. For sure. I was keeping an eye on the score and it was a lot of back and forth. Scary! I can’t believe my team is 8-0! Anyway, that is my excitement for the day. I also made a lasagna for dinner at …

Rivalry Day!

It’s the Michigan State vs. University of Michigan football game day! I have a hard time watching this game because I tend to freak out. I want Michigan State to win so badly. Both teams are ranked in the top ten and so it’s a really big game. We’ll see how I do. I have …

Silver lining…

Every cloud has a silver lining, right? A couple of things: First, I had to meet with my professor today about the incomplete. It was this morning before I had found the steroids to take and I looked very rough. He didn’t ask any questions about what health condition(s) had led to me asking for …

Not only…

…do I have to take this furball to her well check vet visit in five hours, I have to meet with my professor later this afternoon on zoom to discuss my incomplete. I have zero clues how I am going to appear sane doing that. He will know something is wrong. I am not prepared …

Self sabotage…

…is kind of what I’ve been engaged in. I have this fear of success. I mean don’t get me wrong, I also have an absolutely terrible fear of failure, but I’ve been there before. It’s “comfy.” I haven’t had a ton of success as of late. I am afraid of what happens when/if things work …