Fence

I'm sitting on the fence today on whether I want to be productive, or whether I just want to wallow in this miserable mood I find myself in. There are definitely things I should be doing. I kind of don't want to. I know I will feel better if I do them. I really kind …

Nightmares

I had nightmares last night and woke up hysterical. It took me a solid hour to calm down. I am not really a fan. I can't tell you all that I dreamed about at this point, thankfully I have forgotten most of it, I just know they were bad and scared me. I hate when …

Sleepy 💤

I'm exhausted. While I got reasonable sleep last night, I'm still kind of running on a sleep deficit and I'm not sure if I'm getting a migraine or not, so I'm just flat out miserable. It's adding to the mix to make me extra anxious, (my jaw actually hurts from how much I'm clenching it), …

Woozy 🥴

I feel like I'm spinning. I don't really know why. I just don't feel well. My head kind of hurts and my stomach is upset. I'm supposed to have therapy today, but honestly I don't think I can make it. I feel very guilty. I'm trying to work out in my head how I can …

Turnover

My little car, (NOT an actual picture), does not like the extreme cold we are getting right now. It barely turns over. I did get it to start this morning, and I'm letting it run for a while, but I think something is wrong with a battery connection or something because it died last year …

Snowball!

It's been snowing all day. There's easily four inches on the ground and it's the good kind of "packing" snow. If I had the right kind of snow gear, I'd go build a snowman. Unfortunately, I'm pretty sure he'd get buried under the additional 4-6 inches we are supposed to get later on. Weather events …

Reminder…

Quote: Don't give up on the person you are becoming. I needed this.

Uncertain

I have to be honest. I talk a good game, but I have no idea if I'm ready to go back to work. The closer the reality of that gets, the more I'm like... nah. I can't do that. I'm not really worried about school. Maybe because it's far enough away. Work though... woah. I …

Leaves!

It's fall and there are leaves everywhere! I saw a meme about how trees drop their leaves and go through cycles of rebirth and so do we and I thought it was poetic. My case manager has me set for graduation from case management sometime in the spring and I hope I'm ready. I'm really …

Clear

So my CT was clear. That's a good thing. The only frustrating thing is that I don't have a clear reason as to why I'm in so much pain. Right now I just look like I'm making it up. Awesome. I'm not, and it's not in my head. I've had pain intermittently in the same …