Finally home

I am finally home from the hospital. After all of that, they still don’t know what happened or why I got so sick. They kind of chalk it up to pancreatitis, but they don’t really know. It’s super annoying. Regardless, I still feel like crap, but I’m home feeling that way instead of laying in …

I finally see the light…

I have been in the hospital since last Saturday night. I’m so over it. After talking with the doctor today, I finally see hope though. I mean, I think I will probably be going home tomorrow or Sunday. This makes me very happy. I suspect I won’t be doing much when I go home besides …

Big storms!

We had some nasty storms last night I guess. I didn’t notice them because I was in the hospital and my window looks out onto a courtyard thing, instead of fully outside. Thank goodness. I’m pretty scared of storms so I am not a fan. Anyway, a bunch of people I know lost power last …

Yeah… still here…

I’m still in the hospital. It’s awesome. Actually, I mean I don’t wish this pain on anyone or myself, but the staff has been amazing and my doctor has been really good as well. I feel like they are really trying to figure it out this time and not just send me to the curb. …

Seriously though???!!!!

Yeah that is an IV in my arm. I have pancreatitis again. I am so mad. I am in the hospital again, and so frustrated. I don’t know what is kicking this off. Avoid stuff kids. Photo by me.

So overwhelmed

I have so many things to do and so many directions to go in, I am just simply overwhelmed. I don’t know if I am coming or going. I need to clean my room. I am trying to help my friend who is being evicted. I’m trying to stay social. I am trying to be …

Stability is fragile

I realized that part of the reason I’m so upset about my friend getting evicted, besides the obvious, is that I’m not in the most stable of situations myself. I mean, so if something happens to my parents, I am essentially homeless. Not a good feeling. So yeah. I think I might start putting my …

Meltdown on isle 6

I am working on a total emotional meltdown tonight. Not sure exactly why. I mean, I had a really nice time with my cousin and her girls this weekend. It was fun and I feel like I got quality time with all three of them. My cousin’s grandma was also lovely and very kind. I …

Not packing.

I have at least done some laundry towards packing for this trip this weekend, but I am not actually placing things in a bag like I should be. It’s kind of ridiculous. I have no time on Friday to accomplish this task, so I pretty much have to get it done today and tomorrow. You’d …

Not numb, just scared

I have no idea what I want to be when I “grow up.” I’m having a mid life crisis. I just feel lost. I thought I wanted to be a social worker or counselor, but I think that is too close to home or just something that I couldn’t do well so I don’t think …