Kinda traumatized…

I know this seems like maybe a small thing, but really. I have just spent basically three weeks in the hospital. Some of it I thankfully do not remember with amazing clarity thanks to the pain meds, but other parts I do. I distinctly remember the feeding tube and having to have it places twice …

Yaaaaaaayyyyy!

I’m getting out of the hospital very soon! Within just a couple of hours! I’m so happy! I can’t wait! I feel like a new person. I have been feeling terrible for so long, and I finally feel better! Even one of the nurses who took care of me on this floor on an earlier …

I pray it’s today!!

I miss being home. I miss my family and friends. I miss my cat. I miss my car. Seriously. I have spent most of this past month in this hospital. It’s kind of annoying. I have conquered the nausea and abdominal pain and am ready to go home, but now they have me on a …

Stupid stupid stupid head….

…that’s me. I’ve been so sick for three weeks. I totally lost my cool today on the hospital staff because they have this unit attached to the er that has rooms with no windows and suite-style shared bathrooms. I hate this. It sounded like they were talking about me during their shift in the hallway. …

Following up…

Following up on my convoluted day yesterday, I am now sitting in the hospital myself at 4:52 in sort of admissions purgatory. I can’t stop the constant need to vomit. It’s super difficult to handle and I still have other people I’d like to be helping. Oh well. God will redeem this just like he …

Feeding tube?

Okay. So, every little thing that hits my stomach puts me in extreme pain. Like I want to scream and cry. I tried to eat cream of wheat today and I just about doubled over. I worked really hard at not throwing it up. I am beyond frustrated. Then the doctor comes in today and …

I look crazy…

My ct scan came back normal. I am apparently not sick. Or I am, but my body doesn’t want to cooperate right now. I don’t know. Either way, I look crazy. I hate that word but I’m sure someone is applying it to me right now. I hate this. I was convinced they would find …

Not much sleep…

I think I got like four hours of sleep in total last night. I slept for a couple hours around nine and then for a couple more this morning before the lab came in to draw blood. I am now fully awake and ready for my day to day to start! I do feel slightly …

So I’m not crazy! (This time)…

My pancreatic enzymes are over three times the highest range of “normal,” meaning I have pancreatitis again. I knew I was in pain. I knew I wasn’t making it up in my head! I don’t know why I let these doctors in my head. Apparently the machine in the lab was broken for checking lipase …

It gets worse…

Got most of my labs back. As far as I can tell there is nothing wrong with me. I mean, I’m in pain and I don’t know why, but my blood work definitely doesn’t explain it so for all intents and purposes I must not be sick. It must be in my head. I mean, …