
Trigger warning ⚠️ eating disorder
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I ate steak that was leftover from dinner last night. I kind of thought it would be okay.
Oops.
Purged that.
I have been doing that a lot this week. It started with this tiny bit of ice cream last Friday, and it’s been pretty much every dinner since then. I can’t get a hold of it.
I hardly eat anything for breakfast (if I eat breakfast), or lunch so I don’t feel overwhelmed by it or the need to purge, but dinner is such a trigger I can’t stand it.
I know this is really bad for me. It can screw up my esophagus and mess up my teeth even more.
Ugh.
I am afraid to tell my dietican and therapist at the end of this week that this is now a problem that I’m spinning out of control with.
I just need to go back to limiting dinner. I was not purging hardly at all then.
I am in trouble and I know it.
Grr.
I don’t have time to go inpatient anywhere even if that was an option.
I don’t even know that it would help.
Ugh.
So frustrated.
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