Day full of appointments and… shopping!!

I’m not sure which I’m more excited about honestly. I mean, this girl loves some holiday shopping, but I’m also really grateful to have my dietican and doctor’s appointments today. I am not sure what I’m buying while I’m holiday shopping, so that’s kind of a problem. I know sort of who I need to … Continue reading Day full of appointments and… shopping!!

Smoothies!

I would show you an actual picture of mine, but frankly, it was not anywhere near as pretty as this one. Ha! Trigger warning ⚠️ eating disorder content!! ⚠️ ⚠️ ⚠️ ⚠️ I mixed nonfat Greek yogurt, skim milk (I used to do almond milk when I was in the throes of my ED, but … Continue reading Smoothies!

Just a day

It’s a day like any other I guess. The only real difference is I’m laying here crying and afraid. I don’t know what I’m going to do about this pancreatitis thing. I’m terrified. I literally can’t eat without being in pain and sometimes being in pain so bad that I just can’t take it. I … Continue reading Just a day

The 18th…

Something about your body: Sooooooo…..as someone who lives with an eating disorder, I struggle with this one. I’m gonna have to go with my hair. I mean, I also like my eyes. If I got cancer and my hair had to go, I would not be happy, but it would be what it was. I … Continue reading The 18th…

Staff……

…can make or break a hospital stay. Hands down. My friend helped to make sure I wasn’t locked up due to psychosis that was due to pain and heat. That was super helpful. I kind of had a few moments that weren’t so great when I was in the emergency room, but it resolved quickly … Continue reading Staff……

The 10th…

A favorite memory? I think, while again it is incredibly difficult to choose, I’ll try to pick just the one… I pick birthdays with my mom as a kid for my favorite “together time.” She made yummy snacks that most moms didn’t the patience for, and was into making everything a teachable moment. Really though, … Continue reading The 10th…

Broken system

The mental health system is seriously messed up. I know this is not news to anyone anywhere, but I just have to rant for a second. First, let me be clear and say that I am incredibly blessed to have a great psych provider, a great therapist, and parents who help me access a wonderful … Continue reading Broken system