This soon???

Trigger warning ⚠️ for discussion of eating disorder


So I ended up in the emergency room again because my pulse was under fifty.

I told the doctor this time that I had an eating disorder and that changed the whole game.

He ran a bunch of labs (all normal), to check my electrolytes and then when my pulse dropped down to 42, he said that he might have to keep me to “watch me eat.”


He was iffy about that and they retook my pulse and it was higher and I showed him that I had texted my therapist and told him that I had messaged my dietician so he let me go.

I did not want to stay in the hospital for that. No thanks.

I am going to try to do better. I apparently have to try to do better.

I didn’t think I could do heart damage in a matter of like two months. Seriously. Who knew?

I’m sure someone knew, and I probably did it the last go round with this and didn’t know it, but it’s kind of freaking me out.

I wish I could say it freaks me out more than I want to lose weight.

I am not sure it does.

I don’t know. That’s such a messed up thing to even say, but there it is. I said it.

Anyway, that was my afternoon and early evening. I probably need prayers.

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3 thoughts on “This soon???

    1. I ended up going BACK to er last night because the first doc scared the crap out of me and then I watched my pulse when I was laying down and I was afraid to go to sleep.
      Soooooooooo…. After a night on heart monitors etc., I can tell you that my heart is basically strong.
      It’s just slow for whatever reason. They aren’t really worried about it.
      Sending me to cardiology for fun follow up, but acted like that was kind of overkill.
      So yeah. I’m okay. Thank you.

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