Two days….

I have two days until I see my psych.

I have no idea what she will want to do, if anything, to my meds.

Last time was a total and complete disaster.

Maybe I should ask her to leave them alone, and just work on my issues in therapy, but I’m not sure if it’s a therapy issue or a med issue.

I know I’ve been through a lot of trauma in the last six months. I know that is what is making life particularly difficult right now.

At the same time, once a week therapy is not getting it done.

So, I don’t know. I can’t really see my therapist more often than that on a regular basis (last week was an anomaly).

I need something to help with this mood state and help lift me out of this hole.

It seems like there should be a med solution for that. The only problem is that I’ve reacted so poorly to so many meds it’s not funny.

So I don’t know.

I’m just feeling like I’m at a crossroads. I need help, but I don’t know how to get it.

I am just lost.

I don’t have the personal wealth to go for ketamine treatments, which experience says would help, and neither does anyone around me, so that’s not an option.

I just need to figure this out.

I don’t know what I’m doing with myself for the next two days. I need activities, but I’m just overwhelmed.

At least I have church tomorrow.


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4 thoughts on “Two days….

  1. I have experiences with the mental health industry. Without going into the horrid details leading up to it, I was diagnosed with a condition that the professionals didn’t know if it would be permanent or temporary. They even prescribed a highly addictive med to me. I found that out by looking it up on the internet. When I had a counseling session following that, I asked the doc why I had to take addictive medication when no one knows if my condition would be permanent or not. I was holding up the prescription bottle while asking him that. He took it from my hand, threw it in the bottom drawer of his desk and told me I didn’t need it After that, I quit going to the sessions and never took another psych med after that.

    I’m not suggesting this as a course of action for you, but I do know the perils of what others go through in the care of their mental, emotional, and physical health. I can relate and I feel for you.

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