Nightmares

Trigger warning ⚠️ discussion of eating disorder stuff ⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️ I am not really okay. There’s a lot of things going on with my friends and I’m trying to help, but I think I’m sinking. Last night I had a really strange nightmare. I dreamed I was at my psych’s office and the scale was off … Continue reading Nightmares

What to do today?

I had a wicked migraine last night and I woke up today feeling a little iffy. I thought about going to the beach with a friend, but it’s super hot today and I think it would just destroy my stomach. Sooo… not sure what to do with myself today. I kind of want to see … Continue reading What to do today?

Useless day

I decided. I feel like crap. I don’t know what to do with myself. I just feel gross. I need to clean my space and I need to take a shower. Neither of those things is probably happening today. I just feel unmotivated and not okay. I can’t go anywhere and do anything because of … Continue reading Useless day

I am GROUCHY

I woke up on the wrong side of the bed or something. I am so frustrated with everything this morning. I couldn’t sleep in because the neighbors were mowing or something early. I assume it’s because of the heat we are getting today. I don’t blame them, it’s just annoying. I kind of have a … Continue reading I am GROUCHY

Five

That’s how many hours of sleep I got. I woke up at 3:30 this morning, after fighting the clock for an hour, and finally decided to give up and just stay up. I am tired, but not sleepy. I think a few things conspired to make this happen. One, I drank more caffeine yesterday than … Continue reading Five

It’s morning…

I have bags under my eyes. It’s fantastic. I swear I got eight hours of sleep. I’m not sure why I’m so puffy this morning. I did have some pretty psychedelic dreams though. Whew! I don’t remember them very well, except that they were strange. It’s time for coffee for sure. Too bad the keurig … Continue reading It’s morning…

Migraine day…

There’s rain moving in and I have a wicked migraine happening. I am wiped out and feel lousy. I have had a headache on and off for a few days actually, but it wasn’t really a migraine. I think it was stress from being in the stupid hospital. Today however, I am pretty sure it’s … Continue reading Migraine day…