And grouchy. I just want to stay in my room and sleep. I prefer not to deal with people. I don’t mind the texts that come through periodically. It’s good to stay connected, but it is hard for me to engage in an actual conversation. I went to my cousin’s briefly to run an errand … Continue reading Steroids make me tired!
I feel tons better this morning. I’m not sure what Friday night and yesterday were about, but this morning I just feel a little tired. Not like “I can’t move” tired. I’ll probably take it easy today, just in case, but I mean, I do feel so much better. I kind of want to put … Continue reading I guess I just needed to sleep!
My friend calls me from the hospital every day and I don’t know what to say to her. Tonight, she asked me how I was and I just finally told her I was anxious and I was possibly going to have to switch therapists for a while to do EMDR. My friend asked if it … Continue reading Mixed blessing?
Trigger warning ⚠️ ⚠️ ⚠️ ⚠️ ⚠️ ⚠️ Tonight I had a dream that I found someone else I know dead from suicide. I am thinking this is a PTSD thing. I can’t get back to sleep even though I am exhausted because I can’t get that image out of my head. It’s burned there … Continue reading Nightmares!!!
It’s 4:30 am and I’ve been awake for an hour. I think I’m a little stressed out. My friend is doing so well physically after her attempt. I am so grateful to God and her medical team and everyone who sent positive thoughts her way. There’s a long road ahead though and I’m scared and … Continue reading It might be getting to me a little…
There are a couple of positives: First, I went to sleep at 11 instead of midnight. Second, the news starts at 4:30 so there’s something on tv while I make coffee and wander around. Ugh. I just couldn’t sleep anymore. It’s ridiculous. I was having nightmares about Wisconsin getting hit by a nuclear bomb and … Continue reading Yay! It’s 4:30 am!
I am melting. Like the witch in the wizard of oz. I came to a friends house to kind of get away and get some rest, but she isn’t feeling well herself emotionally and I ended up having to help her instead of just focus on surviving myself. Sometimes helping others is a great way … Continue reading So freaking stressed
It’s 6:20 am. I went to sleep at 2:00 am. Ask me how happy I am about that? I was toast all day yesterday. To the point that I checked myself at home for any kind of medical emergency, (blood pressure, glucose, ekg), because I was feeling so entirely unlike myself. My psych’s answer is … Continue reading Ugh! This is ridiculous!
My friend said that she noticed that I am moving and talking really slowly today. I thought that was strange, because all I feel is heavy and tired. I hadn’t noticed the “slow.” I assume it must be depression. I mean, after all it’s one of the questions on the phq-9 depression screening thingie. I … Continue reading Moving slowly
Despite being really upset, I managed to fall asleep and stay that way. I think the hot bath I took last night helped calm me down. One of my friends told me how my friend ended her life. Not sharing that here. I was just better off not knowing. I am trying to be okay. … Continue reading I got some sleep