I am drowning in my own emotions. I can’t seem to find the “rational” no matter how hard I try.
I even went to the ER on Friday night because I didn’t think I was safe or that I could handle how I felt anymore. I probably should have pushed for an admission to somewhere, but instead I made a BS safety plan and went home.
I can’t function. I can’t breathe. All I do is sob. I’m sure there is life beyond this crushing wrecking ball of anxiety and depression, but I can’t see it.
Life seems really hard right now.
Weighing whether I should just go back to ER. I feel like a giant disappointment.
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