Migraine day

Because there hasn’t been enough fun lately, let’s add a migraine!!! Yay! The best thing I can say about it is that I don’t have anything really to do today outside of the house. I wanted to get some laundry done, but I can work on that tomorrow if I have to. I am just …

Haven’t moved yet today

I didn’t go clean the church this morning. I did message them to let them know I was having a bad day and couldn’t make it. They were very gracious about it. I still haven’t really left my bed. I desperately need a shower. I just can’t find the motivation to get moving. It’s one …

Do I dare venture out today?

Everything is coated in ice. It’s actually really beautiful. The scary thing is that there are many many power lines and trees down all over and I’m not sure if my road to the main road is clear. I want to go help out a friend, and I am pretty sure that if I can …

Attack of the Migraine

I have had a wicked headache all day. I can’t seem to get rid of it. It feels like a migraine, but nothing is taking it out. I am absolutely miserable. My stomach is involved as well and I ate dinner like a moron so I’m feeling awesome. I’m thinking it’s this terrible weather we …

Ice storm excitement

It’s funny how the weather can adjust my mood. We are in line for an ice storm today and everything is closed already. I am filled with anticipation, (and anxiety), waiting to see how this turns out. They are calling for up to a half an inch of ice, which is a lot and will …

Realized I failed my therapy homework

I was supposed to be “checking in” with myself five times a day since I saw my therapist on Friday. Oops. Haven’t been doing that. Why? Honestly, because it’s so much easier, (and safer feeling), to ignore how I’m feeling, toss on the mask and just be. I had alarms set. I did. I ignored …

The hole

I am officially in the black hole. I can’t lift myself out of it. Everything is spinning around me like I’m falling through Alice’s rabbit hole and I can’t stop it. I feel like crap. I keep crying and ruminating and crying. It’s a bad scene. I have used all of the skills I know …

The girl who cried

The sky is gloomy and wet. So are my cheeks. I can’t seem to shake this feeling of despair. I am doing everything I know how to not fall deeper into the pit. I know it won’t serve me. It never does. I feel like I don’t have enough energy to keep going sometimes, and …

I want to stay cozy today

It’s a beautiful day out, but I’d rather stay in my bed. I can’t seem to muster the motivation to get into the shower or even to get out of bed. I’m definitely feeling depressed today and I’m kind of unsure why that is. I mean, I suppose it’s been a stupid month and I …

Funny furry face!

This is the dog of one of my friends. He is getting up there in years, but that doesn’t stop him from being goofy. I love him so much. My friend is going with me on my road trip tomorrow to see my pancreatic specialist, which I am very grateful for. I really didn’t want …