Because there hasn’t been enough fun lately, let’s add a migraine!!! Yay! The best thing I can say about it is that I don’t have anything really to do today outside of the house. I wanted to get some laundry done, but I can work on that tomorrow if I have to. I am just … Continue reading Migraine day
Haven’t moved yet today
I didn’t go clean the church this morning. I did message them to let them know I was having a bad day and couldn’t make it. They were very gracious about it. I still haven’t really left my bed. I desperately need a shower. I just can’t find the motivation to get moving. It’s one … Continue reading Haven’t moved yet today
Do I dare venture out today?
Everything is coated in ice. It’s actually really beautiful. The scary thing is that there are many many power lines and trees down all over and I’m not sure if my road to the main road is clear. I want to go help out a friend, and I am pretty sure that if I can … Continue reading Do I dare venture out today?
Attack of the Migraine
I have had a wicked headache all day. I can’t seem to get rid of it. It feels like a migraine, but nothing is taking it out. I am absolutely miserable. My stomach is involved as well and I ate dinner like a moron so I’m feeling awesome. I’m thinking it’s this terrible weather we … Continue reading Attack of the Migraine
Ice storm excitement
It’s funny how the weather can adjust my mood. We are in line for an ice storm today and everything is closed already. I am filled with anticipation, (and anxiety), waiting to see how this turns out. They are calling for up to a half an inch of ice, which is a lot and will … Continue reading Ice storm excitement
Realized I failed my therapy homework
I was supposed to be “checking in” with myself five times a day since I saw my therapist on Friday. Oops. Haven’t been doing that. Why? Honestly, because it’s so much easier, (and safer feeling), to ignore how I’m feeling, toss on the mask and just be. I had alarms set. I did. I ignored … Continue reading Realized I failed my therapy homework
I am officially in the black hole. I can’t lift myself out of it. Everything is spinning around me like I’m falling through Alice’s rabbit hole and I can’t stop it. I feel like crap. I keep crying and ruminating and crying. It’s a bad scene. I have used all of the skills I know … Continue reading The hole
The girl who cried
The sky is gloomy and wet. So are my cheeks. I can’t seem to shake this feeling of despair. I am doing everything I know how to not fall deeper into the pit. I know it won’t serve me. It never does. I feel like I don’t have enough energy to keep going sometimes, and … Continue reading The girl who cried
I want to stay cozy today
It’s a beautiful day out, but I’d rather stay in my bed. I can’t seem to muster the motivation to get into the shower or even to get out of bed. I’m definitely feeling depressed today and I’m kind of unsure why that is. I mean, I suppose it’s been a stupid month and I … Continue reading I want to stay cozy today
Funny furry face!
This is the dog of one of my friends. He is getting up there in years, but that doesn’t stop him from being goofy. I love him so much. My friend is going with me on my road trip tomorrow to see my pancreatic specialist, which I am very grateful for. I really didn’t want … Continue reading Funny furry face!