A 13 hour odyssey…

I ended up going to the emergency room after I got my labs back, and not only did I wait eight hours, but I sat in that waiting room for ten and a half total hours before I was brought to the back. For real. I’m not sure, but the doctor suspected that the triage …

Currently having a meltdown

I went to the lab to get my pancreatic enzymes tested, (I have a standing order), and I am currently freaking out waiting for the results. I feel awful. I’m not sure how I feel really about the results. To be honest, I feel sick enough, I really want to be able to have someone …

Happy and Sad: Bipolar Disorder

What’s something most people don’t understand? It seems like a lot of people think that Bipolar Disorder, (otherwise known as Manic Depression), is a constant state of ups and downs. Swinging from “happy” to “sad” at the flip of a switch. I see a lot of people compare it to the weather, for example. “The …

Let the coordination commence!

I suspect the medical team here in the hospital is going to want me out of here today. I can’t say as I blame them, but I mean I still can barely eat and I still have some wicked pain. The pain is improving though. Significantly actually, so that is great. I am supposed to …

Staff……

…can make or break a hospital stay. Hands down. My friend helped to make sure I wasn’t locked up due to psychosis that was due to pain and heat. That was super helpful. I kind of had a few moments that weren’t so great when I was in the emergency room, but it resolved quickly …

The 10th…

A favorite memory? I think, while again it is incredibly difficult to choose, I’ll try to pick just the one… I pick birthdays with my mom as a kid for my favorite “together time.” She made yummy snacks that most moms didn’t the patience for, and was into making everything a teachable moment. Really though, …

Trying not to be…

My friend’s son has been having a really hard time sleeping lately. Everyone was treating it like it was panic attacks and that it was anxiety causing his issues. He was going 2-3 days without sleep and was just miserable. I felt so bad for him. It turns out, (according to his pdoc), that he …

Broken system

The mental health system is seriously messed up. I know this is not news to anyone anywhere, but I just have to rant for a second. First, let me be clear and say that I am incredibly blessed to have a great psych provider, a great therapist, and parents who help me access a wonderful …

Meeting a friend today!

Trying to build those bridges. I keep trying. I think we might be going to lunch today though and I am just a little terrified. I’m sure I will find something… I am just trying not to look like mental illness is running my life while feeling that way. It’s not just food. I have …

New shirt!!

I got my new shirt in the mail yesterday! I love it! I have a feeling it’s going to be on rotation a lot during mental health awareness month. I just really liked the colors, (and the message obviously). Gotta celebrate the good things, even when I’m not feeling so great. Right?