Heartbroken

A friend of mine has done something so awful that I can't be her friend anymore. I tried to tell her that today, but she couldn't/ didn't hear me. I don't know how to be a human being and compassionate and also just cut someone off at the same time. I need to. I tried … Continue reading Heartbroken

Facetime

Sometimes, the best communicating can only be done face to face. Actually, I think that is often the way it goes. I had a sort of misunderstanding with someone that was not going to be solved with a phone call. I think we are okay now. I hope so. I really can't handle any more … Continue reading Facetime

Fallout

I went to the Alice Cooper concert last night with someone I've known for almost twenty years. He was an old friend from college and he literally just had an extra ticket. It was really nice of him to offer it to me since we just talk on fb about politics and people we used … Continue reading Fallout

Concern

I have been extremely concerned about a loved one for several days now. It's not my story to tell, but this person also struggles and has been having a rough go of it. I came back from Florida to a shell that was cracking and I was completely beside myself with what to do. I … Continue reading Concern

Care

It's that old mental health metaphor about the airplane safety lecture and applying your oxygen mask first before you assist others. It doesn't mean you don't love or care about the people around you, it just means that you are no good to anyone if you are passed out in your own seat. I am … Continue reading Care

Humor

I have an odd sense of humor. It's a little dry. I've never really thought about it as problematic much, in fact my first psychiatrist that I saw for five years always told me that she enjoyed my humor and that it was really a higher order defense mechanism if it was anything. It has … Continue reading Humor

Time

Time is something I tend to take for granted. I usually waste it on things like finding "busy" stuff to do between appointments so I don't have to run all of the way home, laying in my bed in my room listening to music or playing on my phone, and generally not making much use … Continue reading Time

Tightrope

I won't lie that I am not even attempting to strike a balance in my new relationship right now. The person I am with is temporarily available for a short period of time and so I am trying to take advantage of that as much as possible. Pretty soon we are going to have to … Continue reading Tightrope

Study

Today at bible study, we were talking about 1 John. For those of you not familiar, (don't worry, I wasn't until very recently), John talks a lot about love amongst other things. It's just really interesting to me that this keeps getting hammered home in our discussion questions. For me, it all comes down to … Continue reading Study