I am stressed…

The storm clouds are brewing. Anxiety is at like a 96 on a scale of 1-10. I don’t know why it got there. I’m just crawling out of my skin. I’m worried about everything today. I mean, I kind of know why it’s this high. My ex is out of the hospital and messaging me. … Continue reading I am stressed…


…and why I need to learn to offer it to myself. I have written about it here before and I am not going to rehash details, but I was in a borderline emotionally abusive relationship. I have a lot of feelings about it. Mostly, I am angry with myself for not ending it sooner. I … Continue reading Forgiveness

I jumped.

I finally just told my friend not to contact me anymore. I did that yesterday. It was the hardest thing I’ve ever done in my life. I had to though. I mean, it just came down to my survival. I wasn’t going to make it if I continued to maintain ties to her. I would … Continue reading I jumped.

A love like this

I was going through old pictures and in nearly every picture of my grandparents he is looking at her like this. That’s the kind of love I want to have someday. They loved each other in a way that Shakespeare wrote about. That only the greats have written about. I loved that about them. I … Continue reading A love like this