My eyes look funny because if I don't OPEN them, they are a little swollen still. You can kind of tell my face is all blotchy. I got three and half hours of sleep. It was amazing. It's okay though. I'm awake. It's supposed to snow and be messy this morning and I have things … Continue reading Morning!!!!


Okay. Night two on the sleep med and I'm trying not to scratch my eyes out. I clearly am having some kind of reaction to the stupid thing. Last night, I noticed my eyes and mouth were kind of dry, but I thought it was just an annoying side effect. Tonight, my eyes are on … Continue reading ITCHY!


I started a new med for sleep last night. I'm not naming it because everyone responds differently to different meds and I don't want to freak anyone out. Anyway, so far it's a dud. I could kind of tell it was making me a little sleepy, but I was still awake for an hour and … Continue reading Meds


I finally got some sleep last night! I fell asleep around 7:30 last night and woke up around 8:00 this morning. I did wake up a few times during the night, but not as many as usual. It's a little bit short of fantastic. It's also a double edged sword since I fell asleep before … Continue reading Sword


I know posts about depression aren't sexy. Who wants to read some woman whine about how miserable she feels? I get it. The thing is, I do feel miserable and I don't know anything else to do but write about it. I have been low before. I've been lower, in fact. That doesn't really negate … Continue reading Lows


I confess that there are days that I just don't want to be "mentally ill" anymore. I mean, I know that sounds a bit strange. Who wants this really, but I mean that in a real and true way. I just get tired of all of the trappings that come with living with bipolar disorder. … Continue reading Confession


Okay, I know I complained about the -40°F temps, but now it's super hot. Now that I have hit menopause early I'm even more heat intolerant than I was before. Add that to the psych meds and I'm just a mess. Someone bring me a fan!!!!!! Seriously. I have air conditioning where I am and … Continue reading Wave


I just don't feel like myself. I feel like I'm a picture out of focus. I have been groggy and sleepy the last few days. It's hard for me to sort out what is from depression, menopause, or from the after effects of the stupid allergic reaction and the steroids. Steroids used to make me … Continue reading Myself

Update: New

I tried the new sleep med. I woke up easily five times. Fail. What sucked the most was that when I woke up, I was groggy and unable to be fully awake, but unable to really sleep well either. It took almost two hours to fall asleep as well and it is supposed to be … Continue reading Update: New


I'm starting a new sleep med tonight and I'm trying not to freak out about it. I hate trying new meds. I was so nervous about the new antidepressant I started a few weeks ago that I think I actually gave myself a little rash on my wrist for the first day, (it went away … Continue reading New