A whiney poem

This aching in my head is beyond belief, All I want is any kind of relief From the raging fire inside my brain That desperately, urgently needs to be tamed. My life is chaos and out of control, And there is no solace for my soul. The spinning never seems to stop, And I keep … Continue reading A whiney poem

Unfinished poem

Sitting on my bed Ghosts dancing in my head Talking to the shadows on the floor And the monsters opposite the door. The fire raging in my brain Dreams going down the drain Sadness overtakes me And I can no longer see. Through the fog of depression And walls of oppression The stars are occluded … Continue reading Unfinished poem

Fractured heart

A fractured heart pulled apart by a broken mind and I want a sign that it’ll be okay. Crying everyday. Wishing it away. Knowing it’s a part of having a heart and living this way. One day the stars will heal these scars and I’ll be whole with a complete soul and these cracks will … Continue reading Fractured heart

breakdown

Maybe you’ll see it’s not about me and all that I do has always been you. Crying all night tired of the fight Tears made of blood We’re stuck in the mud. And honey I’d tear down every wall Unlock every chain and Fight every man in this small town But, baby I fear we’re … Continue reading breakdown

Grandpa

Rest now Grandpa Close your eyes Let your soul rise To the skies Your time with us May be done But we will always Remember how much fun You had with us While you were here And how you always Called Grandma “dear.” We remember the lake And the cottage too And watching Tigers Games … Continue reading Grandpa

Cycle

It’s scary how many times I’ve been here before. Bruised, bloody, beaten. Pieces of my heart scattered over the floor. Balancing the tightrope between life and death. “I can’t continue anymore.” Yet, something strange happens every time deep within my core. I crawl, stumble stagger and wobble until suddenly I soar. Older original art by … Continue reading Cycle

Mistake.

I think I messed up. I mean, I screw up on the regular, so I'm not even sure which time I'm talking about. I just think I did. I should have known better. I should have tried harder. I shouldn't have been so weak. I should have been smarter. I should have... But I didn't. … Continue reading Mistake.

Day 130

I am sitting in the hospital with a GIANT headache and a side ache that won't quit. I have literally lost track of how many people have been in and out of my hospital room. I just want to feel better. Okay. Meds make it hard to think and type. Have a great day everyone!!!! … Continue reading Day 130