Staff……

…can make or break a hospital stay. Hands down. My friend helped to make sure I wasn’t locked up due to psychosis that was due to pain and heat. That was super helpful. I kind of had a few moments that weren’t so great when I was in the emergency room, but it resolved quickly … Continue reading Staff……

Attempt.

What you did Broke my heart Scattered it into A zillion shards And you think It’s all about you When you in Reality you blew Apart so many Lives in the Blink of an Eye and you Still can’t see What you’ve done To just me Let alone to Your friends who Would go to … Continue reading Attempt.

Heavy

My heart is heavy And so is my mind My limbs won’t move And I find I can’t stop thinking Of you my dear And how you slipped Into your deepest fear Old original art by me.

Trepidation

Down or up I do not know I never know Which way I’ll go. In my bed For weeks on end My comfy bed My only friend Then like a switch From somewhere deep Suddenly there’s no way For me to sleep I do not know What to expect Or if I’m ready For what … Continue reading Trepidation

can’t.

I can’t. I can’t write this paper. I can’t do the hard things. I can’t function like a normal adult. I can’t even shower on a regular basis. I can’t keep my space clean. I can’t even keep it sanitary. I can’t remember the last time I felt joy. I can’t. Older original art by … Continue reading can’t.

No title.

Maybe hope Is a nice Bedtime story We tell ourselves To keep going. What if The whole time The future laid Out for us Is actually hopeless? Image from Pexels

Unfinished poem

Sitting on my bed Ghosts dancing in my head Talking to the shadows on the floor And the monsters opposite the door. The fire raging in my brain Dreams going down the drain Sadness overtakes me And I can no longer see. Through the fog of depression And walls of oppression The stars are occluded … Continue reading Unfinished poem

Fractured heart

A fractured heart pulled apart by a broken mind and I want a sign that it’ll be okay. Crying everyday. Wishing it away. Knowing it’s a part of having a heart and living this way. One day the stars will heal these scars and I’ll be whole with a complete soul and these cracks will … Continue reading Fractured heart

breakdown

Maybe you’ll see it’s not about me and all that I do has always been you. Crying all night tired of the fight Tears made of blood We’re stuck in the mud. And honey I’d tear down every wall Unlock every chain and Fight every man in this small town But, baby I fear we’re … Continue reading breakdown