I’m so not enthusiastic about leaving my cave. I like my house. It’s safe. It’s comfy. And I don’t have to shower to be here, (at least not EVERY DAY). It’s exhausting just to think about leaving if I’m honest. I’m just… overwhelmed. I am tired. I’m always tired now. I said I would help … Continue reading Have to leave the house
I’m all registered for classes for graduate school. Oof. I’m so not ready for this. I have a month still to get my head around to the idea that I am going back to school. I am feeling scared and worried that I can’t do it, but I guess those butterflies are probably a good … Continue reading Registered and not ready
I am grouchy and tired and restless and depressed. I chalk it up to being on painkillers for a week while I was in the hospital and the few days before. I feel miserable. They totally mess up my mood. I need to do some basic things, and some not so basic things, to take … Continue reading My mood is trash
I finally got out of the hospital on Sunday. I still feel not so good. I’m just really tired now and my legs are inexplicably like lead and jelly at the same time. I actually didn’t notice that in the hospital when I was walking around my room. Now I notice it. I don’t know. … Continue reading Crazy, sick or both?
I have so many things I need to do this week. Tomorrow I need to try to schedule a dentist appointment again. It’s so hard to get into my dentist. It’s stupid. I just have to keep trying though. I have to schedule a medical test. I have to schedule an oil change for my … Continue reading Not ready for this week
I’ve been pretty lazy today. I went to breakfast with a friend I haven’t seen in a long time. I watched the 1982 version of Annie, (which is pretty much my favorite movie to this day). I visited my cousin and her girls. I watched a Clint Eastwood flick. Now I’m watching Mean Girls. It … Continue reading Saturday Movies…
I have this graduate school interview tomorrow and the outcome of it will decide how my fall goes. I am supposed to find out in 1-2 weeks whether I am accepted or not, so I’m grateful that I am not going to be in limbo for a long time. It does sort of determine what … Continue reading Tomorrow decides my fall
My psych added a new antidepressant to my cocktail of meds yesterday. I am hopeful that the med will help lift me up out of the constant state of low level depression I seem to be in. It’s kind of like I’m under water but I can see the surface and just can’t break through. … Continue reading New meds and trying
I see both my psych and my therapist today. I am kind of in an in-between place. I think my meds are more or less okay. I mean, could they be better? Maybe. I don’t really know. I am always just kind of depressed. I wish I could just not be there. I wish I … Continue reading Mental health appointments!
I am tired and worn out again and I am so grateful to be back in my bed. Seriously. I love sleep. It’s funny because at different times in my life, I’ve hated sleep, or rather, the necessity of it. Now I am so happy to get rest, and enough of it, it’s almost silly. … Continue reading I like sleep.