This one time, when I was manic... All of the best/worst stories start out that way. I feel like it's important to share some of my story though because it might help others understand this illness better or maybe someone else will see a little of themselves in it and feel less alone. So a … Continue reading Fed-Ex
Just so everyone is crystal clear. I AM THE ONE IN FOUR. I don't plan on sitting back and being silenced either. If you believe in anti-psychiatry hoodoo, of any flavor, it's not welcome here. Psychiatry has saved my life. Two women have spent countless hours with me listening to me, consoling me, and yes, … Continue reading Anti-Psychiatry
It was a very long and strange process for me to come fully "out of the closet" with the Bipolar I Diagnosis I live with. At first, I overshared amongst the people around me and told a lot of the people I saw. Looking back, that was some naive attempt to make the information not … Continue reading Closet
The only way I know to prevent suicide is to erase the stigma surrounding it and mental health as a whole. I have tried to share my experiences here as a way to bust stigma about what people living with bipolar disorder are like. I've also hoped to provide a platform of shared experience for … Continue reading Prevention
My most recent article was published today in The Mighty. You can find it here: Three Ways Being My Own Advocate Has Helped My Mental Health Recovery I have an older story there as well describing what mixed episodes feel like for me. You can find that one here: What It's Like to Experience Mixed … Continue reading Mightier!
About three years ago, I was in a psychiatric unit (nothing new for me) except this time the psychiatric PA determined that she needed to start with a clean slate. She discontinued all of my psychiatric medication and started me on just one. Sadly, within 3 days of discharge I had serious reactions to that … Continue reading Frozen
I remember this poem fondly from first grade because from preschool through second grade, I was a Montessori kid. Starting in first grade on Fridays, we had to memorize a poem to Recite to the class. This was one of the poems I can clearly remember choosing. It's ironic now that I chose a poem … Continue reading Brave
My story got published on The Mighty. It's about what it is like to live through a mixed episode. I knew they were going to publish it, but it's been a couple of months so I wasn't sure when it was going to go up. Here's the link It's a little spot of bright today. … Continue reading Published!
You know how sometimes one person or place can completely change your perspective on something? That happened to me with the Delivery of services I received through my local Community Mental Health agency when I first moved back home from school. I was already full of dread and terror about changing from a system where I … Continue reading Delivery
Okay. The new medication from the psych PA was supposed to drop me below the dream threshold while I slept and help with anxiety etc. Holy crap! All I do is dream now. I think perhaps I was not even sleeping that deeply before so now I am and it feels like I've run a … Continue reading Dreaming