Staff……

…can make or break a hospital stay. Hands down. My friend helped to make sure I wasn’t locked up due to psychosis that was due to pain and heat. That was super helpful. I kind of had a few moments that weren’t so great when I was in the emergency room, but it resolved quickly … Continue reading Staff……

The 10th…

A favorite memory? I think, while again it is incredibly difficult to choose, I’ll try to pick just the one… I pick birthdays with my mom as a kid for my favorite “together time.” She made yummy snacks that most moms didn’t the patience for, and was into making everything a teachable moment. Really though, … Continue reading The 10th…

I am grateful

I have a friend who is very impressionable and easy to manipulate. This got this person into a bunch of trouble, including losing their kids, and I was terribly angry with them for a while. Upon learning the extent of the situation, I realized that my friend, while culpable, was also a victim. I have … Continue reading I am grateful

Five

That’s how many hours of sleep I got. I woke up at 3:30 this morning, after fighting the clock for an hour, and finally decided to give up and just stay up. I am tired, but not sleepy. I think a few things conspired to make this happen. One, I drank more caffeine yesterday than … Continue reading Five

Diagnosis: Mixed

I just realized today that the psychiatrist at the hospital diagnosed me as being in a severe mixed episode without psychotic features. Seriously. That man does not know what a mixed episode looks like I promise. I am not mixed. I know when I am mixed. I am absolutely miserable when I am that way … Continue reading Diagnosis: Mixed

Did kind of a crappy job

Trigger warning ⚠️ substances ⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️ I did not do a good job of reigning in the hypomanic thing today. Instead I got super drunk with my friend on tequila and got super sick. Yay me. I’m finally mostly sober and regretting this decision. I got sick like four times and had to clean the bathroom … Continue reading Did kind of a crappy job