Staff……

…can make or break a hospital stay. Hands down. My friend helped to make sure I wasn’t locked up due to psychosis that was due to pain and heat. That was super helpful. I kind of had a few moments that weren’t so great when I was in the emergency room, but it resolved quickly …

The 10th…

A favorite memory? I think, while again it is incredibly difficult to choose, I’ll try to pick just the one… I pick birthdays with my mom as a kid for my favorite “together time.” She made yummy snacks that most moms didn’t the patience for, and was into making everything a teachable moment. Really though, …

Debby

My girl Debby was found passed away in her apartment this week. I am so very sad. I haven’t seen her in a while because she lived two hours away, but for fifteen years she was a constant presence in my life. She had a heart of gold and helped out everyone. Addiction is a …

I just want to sleep

I’m so tired. I got way too much sun at that memorial thing. It wasn’t super hot, but it doesn’t take much for me to overheat. I drank a ton of water too. It just wore me out. Also, it was stressful because of who came and trying to manage that and keep things relatively …

Feeling introspective

I don’t know why I’m so nostalgic for my 20’s lately. I mean, I screwed a lot of stuff up then. I was intoxicated through a lot of them and even briefly experimented with scarier things, so I mean… I was probably lucky just to come out alive. The thing is, I don’t remember being …

I jumped.

I finally just told my friend not to contact me anymore. I did that yesterday. It was the hardest thing I’ve ever done in my life. I had to though. I mean, it just came down to my survival. I wasn’t going to make it if I continued to maintain ties to her. I would …

It’s possible for one person to wreak havoc on a life…

It’s hard to write this. Honestly. I was in a relationship with a person who freaking lied to me for two and half of the three years we were together and continued to lie to me in the period after that. I didn’t write about that relationship here. Ever. Mostly because I know that family …

Trying to juggle

I don’t look this cute doing it, I promise. I am trying to juggle a zillion things right now. I need to spend time with some friends. I need to help my cousin in any way that she will let me. I apparently have to have my room clean by Friday night to keep my …

Well, I got sleep…

The weather has been sort of questionable the last couple of days and I was super tired so I spent yesterday asleep. It was awesome. I might have been exposed to covid again, so I’m chilling out in my room. That kind of sucks. I don’t really want to expose my parents. They don’t need …

Honestly, I can’t take more loss

I found out today that someone relatively close to me passed away yesterday from COVID. It’s complicated, but this woman was effectively my step-grandmother for almost a decade. She was in my extended family and I am sad. Her daughter dated my father for at least that long and is also very sick and in …