My girl Debby was found passed away in her apartment this week. I am so very sad. I haven’t seen her in a while because she lived two hours away, but for fifteen years she was a constant presence in my life. She had a heart of gold and helped out everyone. Addiction is a … Continue reading Debby
I’m so tired. I got way too much sun at that memorial thing. It wasn’t super hot, but it doesn’t take much for me to overheat. I drank a ton of water too. It just wore me out. Also, it was stressful because of who came and trying to manage that and keep things relatively … Continue reading I just want to sleep
I don’t know why I’m so nostalgic for my 20’s lately. I mean, I screwed a lot of stuff up then. I was intoxicated through a lot of them and even briefly experimented with scarier things, so I mean… I was probably lucky just to come out alive. The thing is, I don’t remember being … Continue reading Feeling introspective
I finally just told my friend not to contact me anymore. I did that yesterday. It was the hardest thing I’ve ever done in my life. I had to though. I mean, it just came down to my survival. I wasn’t going to make it if I continued to maintain ties to her. I would … Continue reading I jumped.
It’s hard to write this. Honestly. I was in a relationship with a person who freaking lied to me for two and half of the three years we were together and continued to lie to me in the period after that. I didn’t write about that relationship here. Ever. Mostly because I know that family … Continue reading It’s possible for one person to wreak havoc on a life…
I don’t look this cute doing it, I promise. I am trying to juggle a zillion things right now. I need to spend time with some friends. I need to help my cousin in any way that she will let me. I apparently have to have my room clean by Friday night to keep my … Continue reading Trying to juggle
The weather has been sort of questionable the last couple of days and I was super tired so I spent yesterday asleep. It was awesome. I might have been exposed to covid again, so I’m chilling out in my room. That kind of sucks. I don’t really want to expose my parents. They don’t need … Continue reading Well, I got sleep…
I found out today that someone relatively close to me passed away yesterday from COVID. It’s complicated, but this woman was effectively my step-grandmother for almost a decade. She was in my extended family and I am sad. Her daughter dated my father for at least that long and is also very sick and in … Continue reading Honestly, I can’t take more loss
It’s the Michigan State vs. University of Michigan football game day! I have a hard time watching this game because I tend to freak out. I want Michigan State to win so badly. Both teams are ranked in the top ten and so it’s a really big game. We’ll see how I do. I have … Continue reading Rivalry Day!
I am melting. Like the witch in the wizard of oz. I came to a friends house to kind of get away and get some rest, but she isn’t feeling well herself emotionally and I ended up having to help her instead of just focus on surviving myself. Sometimes helping others is a great way … Continue reading So freaking stressed