Trying to be okay

I am on the struggle bus today. My hair is terrible because our hot water heater has been down for a couple of days, (the guys are here now replacing it). I have been trying to keep it together for my mom and my stepdad because they are stressed out and it’s hard on them … Continue reading Trying to be okay

When I don’t wanna stress…

…but I clearly am anyway, My stepdad is buzzing around the house because we don’t have hot water. I think I solved that with him this morning and freed him from the box that he was thinking in. Allegedly, the different plumbing company is coming tomorrow afternoon with a new hot water heater of the … Continue reading When I don’t wanna stress…

I’m unclear…

…as to what my purpose is. Not in an, “I don’t belong here anymore” kind of way, just in an “existential crisis” kind of way. I honestly have no idea what God or the universe has planned for me. It’s getting old. I’m getting old. For real. I have friends that have grandkids. I don’t … Continue reading I’m unclear…

Home now.

Mom is… okay. She is also home and sleeping now. I don’t know. I just feel fried. I was so worried. Her CT scan and labs came back normal and her blood pressure went down some so they let us go home. I was kind of super freaking out when she asked me where she … Continue reading Home now.

So scared!

My mom’s blood pressure is really high, and it was while she was napping, so we, (my stepdad and I), are taking her to the emergency room. I’m so worried about her. It scares me every time we have to do this. I can’t lose my mom. Anyway, that’s my afternoon. If you could spare … Continue reading So scared!

Home.

I’m out of the hospital, finally. I still feel kind of terrible if I’m honest. I am so thirsty and I can’t seem to make the pain in my side calm down. I was on iv fluids until this morning, so now that I’m responsible for hydrating myself, I’m not doing quite as good of … Continue reading Home.