Well, I slept like crap

I am so anxious about meeting with my dietican today. I am pretty sure my therapist and her have had some kind of conversation. Maybe not. I don’t freaking know. I gave them each others’ numbers and I’m almost certain they have releases for each other so… I just don’t know what kind of decision …

Sleepless in Michigan

I went to sleep at nine, but here I am at 2:30 a.m. wide awake. Yay. I am struggling with sleep lately. I don’t know why. Sometimes I do fine, other times I do this. I think anxiety and depression are out of control to be honest. I am really struggling. I don’t know why …

Apparently I can’t sleep now…

I went to sleep around 11:00 p.m., but I woke up at 3:30 a.m. and I can’t get back to sleep. Yay me. So I’m trying to relax and take care of myself, but I’m just not tired. I am positive I will be by this afternoon when I have therapy, and I really don’t …

Tired and sick and restless. Yay.

I feel yucky. I need a shower, but I really don’t want to just put dirty clothes back on after a shower and it’s really cold outside so if I get discharged, I could just go home and take a nice shower. I need a nap because I have slept like bananas in here. I …

Awake for two days…

Except for a couple of naps, I’ve been awake for two days. I don’t really know what has brought this change. I’m not sure if it’s the change in weather or a delayed reaction to daylight saving time… I just know it’s miserable. I don’t feel particularly manic, but I mean, I can see some …

Still awake…

…and I’m so excited about it! Just kidding. It’s 4 a.m. here and I cannot get to sleep. I’m very frustrated. I have therapy today so I need to get some sleep before that. I am completely useless without sleep and I don’t want lack of sleep to sort of occlude the real issues going …

Can’t stop the racing thoughts…

…and it’s super annoying. Why are my thoughts racing when I’m horrifically depressed? I’m assuming it’s some kind of mixed depression thing. I’m also having a hard time sleeping most nights. Then sometimes I sleep so much I can’t get myself to wake up when I need to. So who knows? I just know that …

Insomnia is kicking my butt!

It’s 2:45 a.m. in the morning and I’m wide awake. This is ridiculous. I am tired, but not sleepy. My thoughts are racing in not a good way. I don’t know if this is the start of a mixed episode, or just part of the depressive funk I’m in. I’m just not loving it whatever …

Struggling to relax in the face of so much uncertainty…

I find myself glued to the television watching the chilling events occurring in Europe. I am horrified. I wish I could say that I was shocked. I’m not really. I know I don’t talk about politics here. I’m not going to get into my countries’ response or what I think NATO or whoever should do …

Couldn’t sleep

I slept like crap. I can’t figure out why I couldn’t sleep. I woke up so early yesterday and I should have been tired. I fell asleep almost right away, but I couldn’t stay that way. I hate that! I am actually slightly worried about it because I’ve been giddy and weird for a day …