The 10th…

A favorite memory? I think, while again it is incredibly difficult to choose, I’ll try to pick just the one… I pick birthdays with my mom as a kid for my favorite “together time.” She made yummy snacks that most moms didn’t the patience for, and was into making everything a teachable moment. Really though, …

Having an interesting day

Okay, so first I put on a pair of jeans that are literally the same size as my other pair of jeans that fit perfectly and they kept trying to fall off all day. I had a bunch of near-disasters in public that would have been hilarious had they not been so terrifying… Then, I …

Loneliness

I hate how I can be in a house with people in it and still feel alone. Even in the same room with another person actually. I mean, so here’s the deal: My mom sleeps all of the time. At least during the day, so I don’t really get to see her. She has wicked …

Well, I slept like crap

I am so anxious about meeting with my dietican today. I am pretty sure my therapist and her have had some kind of conversation. Maybe not. I don’t freaking know. I gave them each others’ numbers and I’m almost certain they have releases for each other so… I just don’t know what kind of decision …

Sleepless in Michigan

I went to sleep at nine, but here I am at 2:30 a.m. wide awake. Yay. I am struggling with sleep lately. I don’t know why. Sometimes I do fine, other times I do this. I think anxiety and depression are out of control to be honest. I am really struggling. I don’t know why …

Apparently I can’t sleep now…

I went to sleep around 11:00 p.m., but I woke up at 3:30 a.m. and I can’t get back to sleep. Yay me. So I’m trying to relax and take care of myself, but I’m just not tired. I am positive I will be by this afternoon when I have therapy, and I really don’t …

Tired and sick and restless. Yay.

I feel yucky. I need a shower, but I really don’t want to just put dirty clothes back on after a shower and it’s really cold outside so if I get discharged, I could just go home and take a nice shower. I need a nap because I have slept like bananas in here. I …

Awake for two days…

Except for a couple of naps, I’ve been awake for two days. I don’t really know what has brought this change. I’m not sure if it’s the change in weather or a delayed reaction to daylight saving time… I just know it’s miserable. I don’t feel particularly manic, but I mean, I can see some …

Still awake…

…and I’m so excited about it! Just kidding. It’s 4 a.m. here and I cannot get to sleep. I’m very frustrated. I have therapy today so I need to get some sleep before that. I am completely useless without sleep and I don’t want lack of sleep to sort of occlude the real issues going …

Can’t stop the racing thoughts…

…and it’s super annoying. Why are my thoughts racing when I’m horrifically depressed? I’m assuming it’s some kind of mixed depression thing. I’m also having a hard time sleeping most nights. Then sometimes I sleep so much I can’t get myself to wake up when I need to. So who knows? I just know that …