Staff……

…can make or break a hospital stay. Hands down. My friend helped to make sure I wasn’t locked up due to psychosis that was due to pain and heat. That was super helpful. I kind of had a few moments that weren’t so great when I was in the emergency room, but it resolved quickly … Continue reading Staff……

The 10th…

A favorite memory? I think, while again it is incredibly difficult to choose, I’ll try to pick just the one… I pick birthdays with my mom as a kid for my favorite “together time.” She made yummy snacks that most moms didn’t the patience for, and was into making everything a teachable moment. Really though, … Continue reading The 10th…

Loneliness

I hate how I can be in a house with people in it and still feel alone. Even in the same room with another person actually. I mean, so here’s the deal: My mom sleeps all of the time. At least during the day, so I don’t really get to see her. She has wicked … Continue reading Loneliness

Missing people

There are just some people who come into my life and leave such a lasting and indelible mark that I will never forget them. Sometimes, even when things are going well, I really miss them. I miss the conversations and the camaraderie. I miss the way their light shines and the way I feel when … Continue reading Missing people

Experiments with jello!

I tried to eat solid food for the first time since Wednesday morning. Oops!!!!! This particular experiment failed. I just cannot tolerate them as of yet. It’s going to be a problem down the road. I’m seriously frustrated with the word “diabetes” that keeps getting tossed around. Apparently, every time my pancreas acts up it … Continue reading Experiments with jello!

Self sabotage…

…is kind of what I’ve been engaged in. I have this fear of success. I mean don’t get me wrong, I also have an absolutely terrible fear of failure, but I’ve been there before. It’s “comfy.” I haven’t had a ton of success as of late. I am afraid of what happens when/if things work … Continue reading Self sabotage…