I am living in a weird split place. I am all at once completely stressed about my room and how messy it is and the work that is going to be involved to get it back to a livable state, and also able to shut that off and hang with friends at the same time. … Continue reading Dichotomy
I had a really good session with my therapist today. Maybe it was just that I hadn’t seen her in what felt like forever. I’m not sure. It just seemed like it was really productive. We talked about how I felt really invalidated by my medical teams and how much that sucked. We talked about … Continue reading Something good in therapy…
I realized that part of the reason I’m so upset about my friend getting evicted, besides the obvious, is that I’m not in the most stable of situations myself. I mean, so if something happens to my parents, I am essentially homeless. Not a good feeling. So yeah. I think I might start putting my … Continue reading Stability is fragile
I have at least done some laundry towards packing for this trip this weekend, but I am not actually placing things in a bag like I should be. It’s kind of ridiculous. I have no time on Friday to accomplish this task, so I pretty much have to get it done today and tomorrow. You’d … Continue reading Not packing.
I have no idea what I want to be when I “grow up.” I’m having a mid life crisis. I just feel lost. I thought I wanted to be a social worker or counselor, but I think that is too close to home or just something that I couldn’t do well so I don’t think … Continue reading Not numb, just scared
Woo-hoo! It’s my favorite day! Just kidding. I’m washing stuff so I can go up north this weekend to my cousin’s grandma’s 90th birthday party. Mostly, I’m going because my cousin’s husband is staying behind to take care of the puppy, (and I think he doesn’t want to go), and my cousin needs another adult … Continue reading Laundry day!
I woke up today with a headache that I’m hoping is from the weather. We have sort of an unsettled weather pattern with storms last night and more storms forecasted for tonight. I had a lot of fun with my cousin and her girls at the fireworks last night though. They were really nice. It … Continue reading Funk.
https://youtu.be/gdZYyY7g8g4 There are all kinds of great Schoolhouse Rock “America Rocks” ones, but this is one of my favorites. It’s also appropriate because, barring rain, I’m going to see a small fireworks display with my cousin and the girls after all. I’m kind of excited if I’m honest. I LOVE fireworks and I didn’t think … Continue reading Yay!!!!!!!!!!
This is a meme from Facebook, but it seems especially relevant to me and several people in my life right now. I need to figure out what I am going to do with myself. I’m thinking about doing something else with my life than what I had planned for the last ten years. I thought … Continue reading Starting over…
I’m so stressed I’m stress eating. This is from the other day, but I ate a large strawberry frosty from Wendy’s. Seriously. Now, the thing was amazing, but that’s kind of not the point. I’m trying to lose weight, not gain it. Stress eating is not my best look. I just can’t cope with trying … Continue reading So stressed…