Need to find my motivation…

My motivation seems to be about as lacking as the rain has been over the past couple weeks. I guess part of it is that I don’t feel 100% and also that it is, as I’ve said, so darn hot. Just sizzling out there. It just sucks my energy dry as soon as I step …

All of them…

What jobs have you had? Honestly, I have had so many different occupations in my lifetime. Bartender was my favorite, not so much for the serving of alcohol, but for the community and meeting people of all walks of life. I’ve worked customer service in a zillion different kinds of ways from a literal sense …

Sending up a prayer

It might seem like a silly thing to pray for, but I’m sending a prayer that I get out of this “purgatory” area of the hospital and get a “real” room. The room I have now is very small and so it is impossible for me to keep the door closed. Unfortunately, that means I …

Woo hoo!

Yay for self care! I got in the shower and I shaved my legs! If you don’t do that, let me tell you what happens when you don’t keep up on that even a little bit. It becomes a huge chore. Like an extra twenty minutes in the shower kind of chore. I thought I …

A 13 hour odyssey…

I ended up going to the emergency room after I got my labs back, and not only did I wait eight hours, but I sat in that waiting room for ten and a half total hours before I was brought to the back. For real. I’m not sure, but the doctor suspected that the triage …

Angry and sad

I am not in the hospital right now, but that doesn’t mean I couldn’t be there tomorrow. I have no idea what sets off these pancreatic attacks and why I keep ending up in the hospital. The last time was the third or fourth time this year. I’ve lost track now. I just know that …

Answers…

…except when I don’t want to listen to them. I’ve been praying about going back to work and what I should do about that for a few weeks now. When I first started praying about it, WHAM! I got pancreatitis. I ignored that as a possible answer and continued to pray and just accepted the …

Umm… forgot today was Monday… ooops…

I was supposed to meet with that job coach person today. Did I remember that it was Monday? Nope. Did I remember that I needed to call her and cancel? Nope. I feel like a total freak. I literally did not use my brain at all. Oh well. I absolutely forgot. I feel so stupid. …

Oh, and I can’t wait for this part…

My mom is so upset about me continually landing in the hospital, and is convinced my dietician isn’t doing enough, (mostly because she has to blame someone and my dietician is an easy target), to keep me out. She wants to talk to the hospital dietitians about like supplemental liquid diets for me part of …

Job?

I’m meeting this morning with a “job coach.” I think normally she would help someone build a resume etc., except I’m all set with that kind of help. My resume is done. I wouldn’t normally be that confident, but my dad has been in Human Resources for something like fifty years now and he’s pretty …