Nightmares

Trigger warning ⚠️ discussion of eating disorder stuff ⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️⚠️ I am not really okay. There’s a lot of things going on with my friends and I’m trying to help, but I think I’m sinking. Last night I had a really strange nightmare. I dreamed I was at my psych’s office and the scale was off …

Had a good day…

Helped a friend get an identity card and her birth certificate today. We also went to lunch and I had a fabulous Greek salad. I think I helped my friend have a decent day too. I got a shower as well, so that’s a plus. I need to spend tomorrow focusing on a few small …

What to do today?

I had a wicked migraine last night and I woke up today feeling a little iffy. I thought about going to the beach with a friend, but it’s super hot today and I think it would just destroy my stomach. Sooo… not sure what to do with myself today. I kind of want to see …

Well my liver may be safer…

…from the stupid vaccine I got yesterday, but my mood has taken a hit. It made me grouchy and kind of moody. I am not a fan. I totally binged on food yesterday, which is making me have a hard time today. I went to lunch with a friend and I ate a salad, but …

Five

That’s how many hours of sleep I got. I woke up at 3:30 this morning, after fighting the clock for an hour, and finally decided to give up and just stay up. I am tired, but not sleepy. I think a few things conspired to make this happen. One, I drank more caffeine yesterday than …

It’s morning…

I have bags under my eyes. It’s fantastic. I swear I got eight hours of sleep. I’m not sure why I’m so puffy this morning. I did have some pretty psychedelic dreams though. Whew! I don’t remember them very well, except that they were strange. It’s time for coffee for sure. Too bad the keurig …

‘Tis the season?

Everyone around me is experiencing depression/anxiety. I feel so bad for them. Just weeks ago that was me too. I try to help by listening and being there, but I worry it’s not enough. Even my mom is struggling. It’s so hard. I just want everyone to be okay. Sigh. Image from Pexels.

Running errands this morning…

…and gas is like $5.20 a gallon so it costs money just to think about going somewhere. At the same time, a friend needs help with something this morning and I need to go out and get a couple of things, so I guess it has to happen. I am glad I have things to …

Trying to reign it in…

Still feeling a little hypomanic. It’s very hard to sit still and watch movies and try to relax. I am full of energy. I got maybe six hours of sleep, but I’m ready to party. I dunno what to do with myself. Life is complicated. I need to be careful because I have to drive …

My state is beautiful

I love the color of the water in this picture. I took it from the top of a really tall sand dune. There’s a national lakeshore here known as Sleeping Bear Dunes and it is beautiful. It’s a little ways north of where my friend and I are staying, but it was worth the drive …